here i am again

i am here again to update my blog update the series of my life haha! i didn't expect to be invited (ulp!) again to ''pay a visit'' to this cybercafe.Haha notice the 'pay' n 'visit' which means this kind of visit really have to PAY wan ark!finally binded my drawings settle all e mounting boards blah blah and handed up to ma lecturer's table!so gOoOoOd!really felt so darn relieve as if i'm so free but not yet sigh...exam is so so so near lah!i have to start study already huh...borin!study for the sake of not failing for the sake not to waste my mom's $$. my friend asked me why i like to study cuz i was babbling about studies to her ytd...as if i like!i just want to study bcoz i didn't want to fail and re-sit and get kicked out!she seems quite annoyed why i study and she didn't want to study haih!Yea i do understand in fashion design course academic thingie is not that important but then we can expand our knowledge about this field...right...and when i say i wanted to further my studies to advanced diploma she so totally disagree!i was just wondering maybe she got diff thinking about all these maybe she wants more realistic things practical stuffs and not just havin a book full of words!i guess so but i'm both i do like practical stuffs too- alot but books is my cup of tea too! practical stuffs guess what we dont have it in my coll...ugh...so what to do?other than books?and notes?hopefully next year they will have the equipments! they dont even have a room for us to sew - the sewing machines.........they are just only building the drawing room maybe after chinese new year can be use ade.. n there's no dark room for photography so basically things we read we can touch or see. isn't it sad?we have to explore ourselves at elsewhere. yea explore i really need to do that! money money flowing my new year goals are these
- plan financial so can save more every month
- be more hardworking on courseworks
- explore more about fashion
- visit more fashion shows
- contact my old hometown buddies
- commited wholehearthedly to God!
- serving in church and community
- be a social worker

time running out! to be continued.....

just feel like it

just feel like writing today now at this hour. i'm actually in the hostel cybercafe chillin out a bit after working on tht drawings. really a bit relaxed yesterday really busy until when my friend invited me to yumcha twice,i also reject them twice!i read something that kind of scratched my heart...i read it once and then now i read it again my heart felt pain. at first i thought it didn't matter much but then i think again and it actually brings meaning to me. So i was kind of ...upset just a little bit though not gonna reveal whats that just me i know haha
probably some psikik ppl can find out about this....i dont know whether i believe psikiks or not but i've seen one on 'American's Next Top Model'. tht fella really knows their life and their things in life, it made them cry when tht fella reveals their past n their real self. the psikik did encouraged them about their weak and strong attitude so that they can improve more in their life. who i mean here is the model constestants for tht tv reality programme. i bought a new file, costs me rm2 only quite cheap though coz its a 'buy 1 free 1' thingie. i dont know why but that file seems to attract me to study! weird huh? i just think about study when i have that file maybe bcoz i can arrange my notes properly with tht file and also be systematic on my studies. as i said, i also dont have much time to study i think only about two weeks and my good friend kept bothering me about study study. ugh it kind of irritates me duh.. alright time running out now cant write more i'll update this when i get back to hometown peace people be strong..

worka freaka

worka freaka, simply means freaks at work. cuz i worked on my assignments like freak gal! probably a very common thing to all my seniors, a lot of assignments even when the exam is near but ppl have to really understand i'm in the first batch of this course, so if anything goes wrong it comes on us first then they will only fix it when my to-be-juniors comes in. this course is real fun and interesting but sometimes when lecturer failed to be an inspiration everything will be lost. we can find other source of inspiration - lots out there just imagine we are actually facing the same lecturer everyday again and again so if my tutor is inspirational i'm thrilled but not THAT lecturer. yes coursemates it's who you're thinking...and who i am thinking. she might be expert in art & design stuff maybe she just doesn't know how to transfer it to us. wrong way n not changing at all. sigh.. i've worked on my 41 pieces of fashion drawing since few days ago and everyone was doing the same thing - rushing for the assignment cuz we really dont have much time. she wants perfect work but so little time. my friend said its fun yea it is really but we dont do perfect work in one snap!hey we are learners!41 piece is crazy, everyone looked at me in disbelief when i tell them about it. i know this is neccesary for me to improve more and the right thing to do for my course but then again so little time? fuahh not easy at all. i totally agree with what malaysian international fashion designer Bernard Chandran said ''i dont make 20 garments in one day but i make one garment in 20 days" get what i mean?i think this should be the way yes young ppl like us need to be alive,lively and all strengthened. i'm only human and i get tired too okay need time to chill too. i worked on tht 41 pieces of drawing from noon to night and from night to morning. i stayed up from yesterday 9pm until this morning 6.30am. got some sleep until 10am and continued until 7pm. its crazy i even had to skip english class and my clean record of full attendance gone...yay and today is the last class...ugh. finally finished drawing n colourin with diff mediums now. tomorrow have to send for binding and the hand it up to the office. i have to say yes its cool experimenting with diff mediums and papers.. crayons, soft pastel, charcoal, color pencils & art markers. my fav is crayon n soft pastel. all right to have a conclusion to all this... i'm so relieved now tht i've finished everything and will be even more relieved when i hand it up. i thanked God because it was kind of a last minute work and yea its half my fault too tht i need to rush for it because i didn't manage my time properly. and i admit i'm lazy and so not lively with my works a bit bcuz of the lecturer too but guess at the end of the day its myself to be blamed cuz i wasn't flaming enough to do all this i didn't put my heart into it sigh... hopefully i'll changed no matter what circumstances may come or what situation i'm in or whatever kind of influence. i'll be more hardworking since this is what i always wanted to do since primary school - fashion design. i gotta learn the hard way and study smart. i dont mind the path is difficult i just need to have a flaming heart for all these like what my site is. this site really represents me cuz i always want to have a flaming heart in whatever i do especially things important in my life- yes above all flaming heart for Lord Jesus Christ no matter what happen through good times or bad times.

this is total freak!!the candles my friend gave me for birthday,its exactly what i want to give her on christmas!!same shape,same place that we both bought as well!!Fuyohh its such a wow!
And today as we were walking up the stairs,my right shoelace is loose....i was just about to say that when my friend said ''aiyak,my shoelace loose d!' oh my gosh its really darn freaky both our shoelace got loose and same right shoe somemore!whoaaaaa...my good ol'buddy, great minds do think alike yea?this is not the first time that our thoughts are the same...its very often!haha!
ugh...so sarcastic n so sam-pat lah...me...uhh....ciaoz lah

Thank God for His wonderful birthday blessing upon me!Thanks!My first year in college and i had one of the best birthdays in my life!Just that my family is not with me..i wish my mom shared my happiness!But anyway,it's such a joyful birthday!i really want to take this opportunity to thank all of 'em!My hostel friends gave me a suprise birthday party when the clock struck 12 and got a delicious chocolate cake to celebrate with me wow thanks to all of you Lina,Gracy,Pauline, Jessie,Sui Shan,Vivenne & Chin Hock!Thanks for the Doreamon collection series!!its something i've always wanted n u guys r so sensitive enough to know that!My hometown friends,churchmates n my dear friend in s'pore sent me b'day sms-es,its so sweet thanks ya all!on tht day itself i received gifts from my coursemates also my good good friends,thank you Agnes for the angel decor,its what i wanted as well!thanks Grace for the candles!!i lurve candles!you all seems psikik can read my mind to know what i want WOW hehe!thanks to Shi Rou for the Doreamon hp decor set i lurve it!!thanks Evon for the lovely necklace!it's quite vintage style n its so cuteee thks ya!Thanks for all who sent their blessings and wishes for me,i appreaciate it all so much!i had a wonderful birthday thanks to all of you!
YES YOU~!YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!

here i am again in the cc with my friend so at least got time to update this blog!hmm...i went to the KL fashion week n saw the designers there and their collections!AND its totally COOL!!Ahh Sebastian Gunawan my fav designer n also Tom Abang Saufi!!YESS i MET them!!The show is GREAT!my coursemates n me run here run there just to check out the collections n opened our eyes BIG BIG to catch the details of everything and everywhere we go!we even took pics with the designers over there.really excited to see so many different kind of things!one australian designer was so kind enough to teach us a thing or two!Fuahh...man it was amazing!the scene over there!so mesmerizing!so amusing!i personally liked the process more than its outcome...my friend and i observed closely how the garments are done n so i want to learn more about dressmaking and beadings!And and i went to mission trip in Raub,missed my aunty's 40th anniversary weddding dinner but i never never ever regretted it!!and i knew i won't!The trip was just awesome!!it was tiring but it gives me so much satisfaction i could not ask for more!From village to village we went,we played,we talked,we danced,we sang, n we jumped around haha!it was really fun!hope to join tis kind of trip again,to serve God with a full heart!Went back to taiping though but no time to meet up with my old friends!went back friday nite then the whole saturday *snap *snap *snap all for the sake of mr TPH.know wht i mean?the photography project lahhh mr TPH my lecturer@tutor aso wah dieee haha!the pics uhh...turned out just just ngam ngam fine onli...aih hopefully approved!came back kl just today with a whole bunch of things,i purposely haha bcoz i sat car mahh...my cousin bro drove me back wahhh so syok first time nonit sit bus!!!tomoro d bm presentationlah...color studies....n ms MCD's class ahhh!!tht day she cancelled the class due to staff dinner!!make us all miserable!darn!she could hv made the class earlier or announced to us earlier tht the class cancelled!Fuhhh!i think i better sign off now and do my work lahhh!now my room is a whole mess of things,only manage to clear some n put them under my bed...iskkk looked so so...so so...many things lah!my nature lah!at house my room aso a lot of things!n very dusty aso i better clean-up yoh!
peace ppl!!