its been really supa-dupa long since i blogged...felt lazy to actually blog to express myself.well, here i am again.HA HA.????

semester started, week 5...TONS of assignments and exams for 4 subjects. Gotta work real hard,man.i'm workin to be more consistent of all my assignments. there's this subject -computer aided design- but hah guess what?we dont have the resources for it (TARC).there's only one software in one comp,only one keylock...that costs about U$75,000!! which leads to -doing work MANUALLY. since like abt 18 of us cant jump on only one comp, we had to do it the manual way, which means draw,draw,draw n color,color,color.phew!

somehow work has gotten me far from God's presence. Have to exercise on my faith and continue seeking Him! been thinking a lot, abt friendships & relationships.And also scratching my head, dont know where to go after dip. I'll just see where God puts me and i'll be there. overall, things are going pretty well but life ain't easy.Always hang on! Thank God for all things possible, assignments that has been goin good, and wisdom for great designs!Amen! For the past 4 weeks, every saturday i've been overnight at someone's place.tired. oh yeah the H20 promo video!now i realise how hard it is to be an actress/actor. H20 is a real good event, hopefully can invite my one team of friends to go!it'll be lots of fun!

i have this wood carving tools but yet to be touched! my friend says she could get unwanted woods for me!yay i can carve,finally!for the past 2 weeks, went to midvalley's cinema watched Corpse Bride, Zorro 2 & Chicken Little! wow, all movies are thumbs up!lovee it haha!Today went to midvalley and got to snap all the windows displays that i need for wednesday's class project. hm,i guess till here,i stop?nth anymore i think gagagagga!

okla,its wayyy past midnite, and it's really late. chaoz

Got many prayers to do down the list, especially for those having their exams. its really hard time studying i know, so i'll keep you guys in prayers!God will provide and God will make a way!Amen!

Gosh, finished the sagmeister book and it was fantastic. Really crazy designer, liked those designs.hey tks gordon for willing 2 lend me the book, it opened my eyes so much! couldn't sleep right now, didn't know why, nothing practically on my mind. nothin really bothers me though. hmm...guess i slept too much ytd?hahahaha exam is on monday, gotta prepare too for it. altho its only an english paper but i need to know e formats, essays and stuffs yeah. for the past one week, in hostel, mostly by myself all the time cuz frenz busy studying, my hostelmate working... one went bc hometown. hm but sometimes a lil' bit of own private moments are good. hehe...lets see...i've been doing laundry every morning, tidy and arrange my stuffs in the room[too many things!yipes!], hmm..wat else, watched some VCDs,read e design book, read comics, made crafts, onlining....etc need to practice drafting, sewing and illustration!!very important!yes!

my browser having some probs since last week and i couldnt log in to any sites at all, couldnt check mail, friendster, forum,blog yikes!really frustrating!and i've been trying time and again setting up my browser but nothing works!! i was so sick of all that, decided not to go online again and pack up my laptop+equipments into my bag. but then later on past midnight i on my laptop again. And sought help from the Internet help...didn't reli understand the instructions but then tried again on setting the browser, i just made one slight changes and then thank God! really praise the Lord!my browser miracolausly is working again!!i was shocked and happy at the same time!just one slight touch and voila!it work again!after one week?!omigawd.awesome

sunday...bright shining sunday haha! and its 4am now, such an early sunday morning lol. *yawns i think getting sleepy aredi..hEe..ZzZzZzz

In my hometown now..I had a small reunion with my schoolmates ytd, it brings back memories...and today I flipped through my secondary stuffs and suddenly realised how secondary days was so much fun!Creeping out of classes, eating in class, fooling around haha all those mischiveous stuffs we did!Teachers, sweet & boring ones, classes, recess, things that I used to do, things that me and my friends shared...wow its unforgettable!Its gonna be such a long long long neverending story to talk about my life in secondary!Sweet & bitter ones, A LOT!I guess many people feels that way too, we kind of looked back and it's just beautiful. I love drawing,writing & reading in school and I always does that when I felt bored in class!I got caught once and the teacher grab my storybook!It was one of the Malory Towers series from Enid Blyton!Yipes!How I wish I still have my friends around...but we are all leading our own ways now, though I still keep in touch with them but its never gonna be the same anymore.

I seldom go home and now that I'm home, I want to talk to my mom more but sometimes, its so hard?I dont know, i'm very close to my mom cuz my dad's not here anymore and mom is the only one I've got.I want to be able to share more with my mom. I do tell my mom things and she does the same but then there's just something missing.I want mom to know how much I loved and cared for her.Although I'm not at home most of the time. Yeah, i want to talk to mom!!Mom is the sweetest thing on earth...yes.I must talk to my mom more.I want to spend more time with her.=)

Oh btw, while i was waiting for my cousin to pick me up ytd, i went to popular bookstore.And I bought Archie comics, it was really worth it. Two for RM7.90!!its much more worth it than those that I've bought!Yay!I bought two sets. Archie comics actually helped me to improve my illustration lae...i love to draw, i want to improve my illustration skills tis sem break and also my sewing!hehehe yeah!Its so darn hot in taiping nowdays....arh..have to get my bath now and homecook lunch!!ahh...homecook food has never tasted better!Yumm yumm!

m.y. d.e.v.o.t.i.o.n n.e.e.d.s a l.i.f.e

m.y r.e.l.a.t.i.o.n.s.h.i.p w.i.t.h G.o.d n.e.e.d.s r.e.v.i.v.a.l, n.e.e.d t.o r.e.k.i.n.d.l.e t.h.e f.i.r.e a.g.a.i.n

Into Your hands
I commit again
With all I am
For You Lord
You hold my world
In the palm of Your hand
And I am Yours forever...

Jesus I believe in You
Jesus I belong to You
You're the reason that I live
The reason that I sing
With all I am

AMEN>>sorry that i've abandoned You,i come again and into Your hands I surrender ALL.

aw..home sweet home!i'm back in taiping,it feels so good!its been so long ever since i was HOME~~sobs..finally...ahh cant explain e sweetness in HOME>!beautiful,wonderful & lovely!!!YEAH!somehow i have many plans for semester break,doin my own personal things,yea haha.actually b4 that, need to prepare also for English examlah haha! then i'm free,free...still wondering where to head after dip in tarc.how?what?so unsure me,i SO want to stay with TSF. at least for 2 more years?hm..i kind of forgot what i want to blog about now...LOL..just informing that i'm home, will go back on sat, for FGA first sat service!!countdown!HEE!magnificient!majestic!

k.n.o.w w.h.a.t s.e.c.r.e.t l.o.v.e.r.b.o.y d.o.w.n i.n.s.i.d.e m.a.n.y a.g.o d.i.d n.o.t w.h.a.t n.o.w?

AHHH...finally assessment all complete!

it was somehow kinda messy but thank God everything just went fine...thank You dear Lord!Amen!

really thanks to ms nadeane too,she seems to know about everything and seems to be right about everything!yea some parts she really does understand me.thanks for all the advices and i'll change!who can expect you can actually share your problems with your lecturer??and the fact that she understands?haha, well i just have one!tks again...not forgetting all my helpful classmates...thanks for all your help!!

i recognized my own work problems and yeah i'll really really try to organize my things better and will change for the better!

praise the Lord!!Amen!

visited two person's blogs today and both gave an impact in my heart there and then

yeah..meet ppl's expectations bt God's?More precious & nothing could replace it, more important...

read ur blog grace and it does felt so - i dont know how to describe but i seem to understand what you are goin through and sometimes i'm goin through the same situations as you..rush of waters came down,if u know what i mean?because it so happens when i was reading it, i was going through something too,and i broke down.

found my own problems that leads me to - doin miserable work and terribly done
probs..i worry too much[altho i tried nt to],i get nervous,i delay and in the end rush for it
must change all these....really trying..by God's grace!sometimes i'm care-free..which [ah..] cause me to delay [huh]

ps.michael koh's message was deep...but he made me realise things in my life.it was strong.i always fall into confusion- yeah really but through all that i learned to be stronger than EVER.
i broke down many many times this sem...so many things that i just couldn't control.couldn't catch up...
God is in full control of everything and I commit all things in Your hands.I surrender every single thing to You God.I seek You Father.Amen

Merdeka shirt!!

haha...that's my assignment!today start sewing, finish sewing darts & collar & cuff yeah~ step by step process is fun!but really need to catch up a bit more!Completing all my final projects... three subjects altogether but thank God that I'm catching up with it.Praise God..i'm now arranging my works and managed my time for all my assignments...learning to be a bit more consistent abt my work.Thank God soooo much!

kind of said the wrong thing to my fren, i think it hurt pretty badly..but i didn't really meant it that way.And someone did say the same thing to me too, but i just dont understand how come i can be okay about it and my fren cant.ahh..why ah?is it me?hm...

anyway,jus wan to post this poem...something i wrote in a boring english class [again!] i wasn't really listening to the tutor so this is what came out..

As the voice runs through
I began to wander
The voice slowly recedes
Wandering away in my own world

I can't even hear anymore
Just the images of my dream
Going away and further
As far as I could go

But I can see more
Images of togetherness
Appeared in my mind
So closely knitted

With eyes wide open
That voice didn't matter
I just dreamt away
Tuning into a faraway land

It goes on and on
I stayed even longer
Something strucked me
I had to be strucked

Still havent complete my assignments yet!!haih....tomoro have to start sewing suddenly feel so lazy~!reli sort of sick with the environment...

ZzzZzzZz

On a boring 2 hours English class plus 1 hour replacement class I...

Here I settled down
But deep dissastifaction fills in
The voice gives pain
Unbearable pain

Within I closed my hearing
The voice still tingles around
I blinked and blinked
Hoping to just shut my eyes

It continued for hours
I couldn't stand it anymore
My lips sealed but not that
Sitting down froze to the source

03/08/05
4.50pm
M I N G aka guo xiaoming

What more to expect?

Fashion Construction
- merdeka shirt
Textile Materials
-Cultural Influences[research book,moodboard,research board]
Fashion Image
-World Dress [south africa]-research book
Surface Design
-50 sketches
-Design Report
-Illustration
-Moodboard
-Repair garment

E'thins okAr..lookin forward to COST..felt lil' upset abt one thing that happened,such a loss *sigh wish i didn't have to do it.but i did.

"i hopped when the grass calls,in the midst of a tremendous wind,it flew away on it's own"

-M I N G-

Oh well all things come and go...the big project is finally done and its over noW~!

but it doesn't mean relaxation..*sigh...more work to concentrate right now.MORE work to come...four subjects, each subject has at least 2 to 3 assignments *fuahh~~although its a lot but i just liked it that its getting more and more fun~!i liked being busy~if not i'll be so restless,darn boring wan ah...now things like that is goOoD!

my mom coming down this saturday,yay~!long time din c mom,misS her sO much,its been long the last time we went shopPing together~!now i can spend some time with my mom =)

ciaoz~~

Come & Gone

Finally,THE DAY 17July 2005 had come and gone~~

I was practically working till past midnight a day before orientation night.Thank God my lecturer helped me with the sewing.I worked till 4.30am in the studio,only 3 of us left there.In the end managed to finish and went home feeling so darn tired and sleepy.Woke up at about 9.30am cuz i need to go Jusco to get my accessories for my model.Been rushing around Jusco and got a pair of casual shoes,a necklace & a bracelet!Back to studio,i went directly to the backstage to give the stuffs to my model.Thanks agnes for helping me to sew the pants hook!!i was exhausted when i reached the college hall.oh well my model liked the stuffs i bought,good~!i think it suits him pretty well and even my garment suits him~!yay finally the whole piece is completed!!and my model wore the whole suit for me to see and it looks good~~!haha juz some sewing mistakes here and there lahh~~!but i'm so proud of everyone in my class DFD 2,everyone did such a good job that i myself didnt believe i actually sew a garment~!WOW fantastically incredible i can say!we held on to each other and helped each other,made it through,made it this far and made it!!!YEAHHHHHHHHH~!!i'm impreSsEd!!

the orientation starts at 6pm and by then we were already backstage,ready to dress the models up for the fashion show.too bad we missed the catwalk.=/ after that we went on stage for some credits [haha] for our sweat & blood hard work lol..~!then we sat in front watching the rest of the show.my model played the guitar,it's really awesome.
Guess what,my model won first runner up~!!phew!i was SO happy!didnt expect him to win but he won!!WOW!! yeahhhhhhh cant describe the excitement~!my friend's model is the champion which i think he really deserves it so i'm very happy for him,too!!wow its jus amazing.but i felt sad for others...they really did so well!i'm proud of all of them,they are just fabulous!

i'm so happy with DFD 2~!!yeah!!keep rawkin ppl~!

Another long tiring day..been at work for like hours and it seems like forever~!i felt like i'm already a working person right now,sewing from day to dawn.that's like supa-crazy!had to rush for it though,sunday is going come really really soon!but i'm pretty sure that i can finish on time,just hope that there will be no BIG mistakes!if little mistake then i can fix it.BUT i'm pretty sure its okay cuz i do step-by-step according to ms.nadeane's teaching.weird,now i like her teaching better,she's so encouraging!i guess sometimes ppl do act differently,depending on situations.me,too.i'm happy with the results now but will be even happier when the whole piece is finally done!!yay!i'm really inspired and encouraged!

today e work is fine,but there's this thing that i'm not happy about.not goin 2 talk it over here.i dont know...e person that i thought could listen to me,was i wrong?instead other ppl were more concerned about my happenings rather than..yeah.i'm so sorry.

God,give me strength to go on each day as i work.Thank you Lord for being there all the time.i'm tired but knowing that you are working with me i'm glad.

He has made me glad
He has made me glad

Standing here in the midst of us
As we worship build your throne
And as we worship,build your throne

"came out in mind,messy but there's something about it ..."

Today sure is a longgg tiring day~!

I traced out my collar n its facing,den ms nadeane checked,something wrong with it and i have to fix a little.i dont noe why,i reali felt like crying but i hold back my tears.i guess i just worked very hard and den when i have to re-do again,its painful.but i didn't just stop there i manage to fix it and did it correctly.i thank God for being with me as i rush for my work.oh well in the end i manage to put all pieces on the fabric and cut.tiring!and there's more to do! but i believe i can!i must do extra fast but accurate!i always pray and God hears,i noe He's there for me no matter what will happen and that really make my heart so relieve.altho in the midst of such difficulty i will hang on even if i broke down,i will stand up again~!thank you Lord!

Gambate~!!gambate DFD 2~!

sHopPing~!

mostly all draftings done~~jus need to trace out everything,ms nadeane said we must keep our masterpiece!!LOL...went to KLCC with grace & agnes today.Evon not here!!hmph~! =P
firstly went to MNG,they're havin a sale den look for accessories in Isetan.Went into Romp and try all kinds of denim skirts on agnes...lol...quite a lot she tried but end up buying nth, tot v can get better bargain at sg.wang!but aww..waz e big deal v r allowed 2 try as many as we want!!and tat guy workin there was like walkin round n round us,even fix his hair in front of us...in front of e mirror! ???helo?!! oh well,grace got her mom's b'day pressie n then me n agnes jus walked around shoe shops and practically trying this,trying that...it was fun though~!!lastly we went into our last stop,Chameleon....i got a lip shaped embroidered brooch rm3.90!!i think tats quite a good bargain,plus a pair of earrings n a purple hairband[hair gettin long!]agnes got a necklace n a pair of earrings.it was 6.30pm by the time we went to lrt station,but HEHE v wan 2 walk more!!nex time ya!!

i actually jus wake up from sleep....too sleepy...slept at 9am n now woke up d~~~oOo the other day bought a shoe from vincci - i really like it sO sO much hehe!!cuz 2 pair of my shoes torn!!so i had 2 get another one!

hmm...adiOs~!

yAy!!ms nadeane 'fixed' my collar and it looked good!!beau-tea-full & loaf-lee!!hehe

still got some bits here n there for my drafting...jus add some finishing touch to it n voila!can cut fabric d!again,hopefully can finish on time 17july is THE DAY!!

erh...how about the sewing part?crash crash course wahahaha!*learn from experience~~things getting on hand now but sOoO limited time!!i think nex week v need to burn midnight oil in class already,pack & sleep in college LOL!
hahaha...gambate DFD 2!!we will go through this together,we will make it!!!

thanks SO much to ms nadeane[who has reli been like a 2nd mom],mr.jamal & ms hariza

morning~!

At least can post something before i get to class!huh - its getting very urm...out-of-control?i dont know i so hope the lecturers have some back-up plan for us!!yay!i'm so excited to sew but now the flower hasn't bloom yet huh~~
now waiting for my friend = who woke up even later than me!!i always arrive late at class,i want 2 do my work finish off with it....take lunch

honestly,i'm little worried abt the collar part...many things to draft!!

Still drafting...maybe going to cut fabric tommorow?we took almost 2 weeks to draft...how long is it gona be to sew?lets see...i need to sew the jacket,the denim pants [with pockets too], and patchwork!

furthermore,i think my drafting are just almost done,not exactly done yet.everyone else is except for those who are doin women's...a little bit faster than us who are doing men's wear.*sigh hopefully can finish on time.
huh...

THE BIG DAY!!!
Saturday 2/07/05

8am-9am
Got this boring English class with Chris aka. Lehtew

9am-10am
Went back hostel to pack for the Genting trip

10.15am
Ms Nadeane,Ms Hariza & Mr.Jamal arrange us in groups.we’re going to buy fabrics!!YAY~!well,I sat in ms.nad’s old car [which is as old as her] haha I don’t mind really, u know,I I just love old stuffs. =)
We chit-chat in the car and ms.nad is just so COOL. Like a big sister, but she calls us her “children” hehe~!the moment we reached PEOPLE TEXTILE SHOP, I was so fascinated by all the fabrics there [practically walking round n round checking out!] me and my partner chose A LOT of fabrics for our patchwork and I manage to get denim with 2 diff washes.i’m goin to sew denim~!!!yikes?yay??YAY!!haha~! we spent nearly 4 hours there..choosing,confirm,cutting…paying..i was getting so tired,my legs are killing me~! Huh! In the end, I got 2 denim, 3 cotton fabrics[including my camouflage fabric~~!!!WOW~!] then we head over to MCD’s to get our lunch.

3.15pm
I quickly finished my lunch and rush to pasar seni station. My bus to genting is at 4pm. I was quite late,so I had to rush. Thank God I manage to reach on time. My sis n her frens were already there. We manage to get place in the bus[phew!]I was sleeping the whole time in bus….i was really really tired n sleepy!

4.30pm
Reached genting skyway station.Reached genting about 5pm. Then we went to first world hotel if there’s any room – no hope FULL HOUSE. They asked us to come again and check at 7pm.so we walked around while waiting. Went to Sinma and got myself 2 pair of earrings,one tribal necklace n a beaded bangle. Love it~! after that we went to have dinner at “Only Mee’’…one bowl of mee rm9.50.!!?!?!?!?!?! I shared wit my sis. We did check the rooms at 7pm but still – full hse.huh. so we got no place to stay~!

7.30pm
we got in the concert hall.cant wait- I felt so nervous haha~!i’m in Leehom;s concert and watching him perform LIVE~![finally!]HOW COOL`!!The concert then began at 8pm. Leehom came out at 8.15 – intro slide presentation of his journey in music. Then dancers and opening song was fang kai ni de xing. He sang a lot of numbers, it was a 3 hour concert~!i always grab the opportunity to run in front and see him face-to-face haha!!i could really see him up-close,yea he’s so good-looking~!the concert is leehom’s but its also about the band and the dance band. They are SOO COOL~!!!the band rawks~!so was the dance bad,they were just HOT!!i also kept an eye on his garments, he got really nice garments. “a fashion eye~’’ I loved his dressings and his hair!!

I think its too much to describe though…haha!i can only say that this concert is SO worth it and it is superb~! It’s not just leehom’s appearance but he got talent~! He played the keyboard, grand piano, drum, violin and the er-hu. It was really marvelous!!
He even compose a ‘thank you’ song to us on the spot!!!!his voice is truly remarkable.