BELIEVE

Today FGA had combined service and the speaker was fantastic! Ps. Philip from Indonesia spoke of a great testimony about a girl and his own testimony as well. It was really a life-transforming day for me!

Anik from Indonesia had bone tuberculosis. Her bones was practically melting and all she could do was lie on her bed. Imagine her bones are like cheese - soft!! She can't do anything at all. I watched the video with my very own eyes how it all happened - i don't have the video with me here but what God did to heal her wasn't just a healing miracle but a creative miracle! And her strong belief in the Lord was speechless. Doctors couldn't save her. But she persevere, she BELIEVED!! Her CG Leader BELIEVED! Everyone around her believed and kept on praying. And it all happens because of BELIEF. God created new bones in her body!! Her old bones were coming out from her body and new solid bones were created in her!! Now she could live like a normal person again!

In 2 Corinthians 5:17 "Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation, old things have passed away, behold all things have been new"

What I was really amazed was the word believe. That's such a powerful word, to know and keep it is never easy. Yes, we believe in Him but how deep is our belief? I began to question my depth of believe and passion. Sometimes even in little things I doubted Him and God kept telling me not to doubt in Him. Worries and fear shook my belief in Him. Many times He reassured me and my belief grew and grew. This time, today Anik's testimonial has grounded my belief in the Lord. I couldn't stop thinking how the word is so impactful and how it just got the hold of me! NEVER would I let my problems get in the way anymore.

Nothing is greater than the Lord. We all know this and me, too. But I need to keep on reminding myself everyday that HE is Almighty and HE is all possible.

BELIEVE! A BIG word! Believe and be passionate! I'm excited in the Lord! :D

believe is burying your passion in your heart and mind :)

memoirs

suddenly feel like reading back my old posts as it brings lots of memories and probably remind me of things i forget.

i realized i forgot something...my passion in fashion. and my directions. previously i posted i finally found what i really want to do - bring happiness through fashion. i loved bridal wear as well and last year i wanted to chase over that. now my dreams has expanded...? and i never really chase over that dream. apparently paroimia came and i felt it was my calling so i did what was my top priority.

things change huh. and last year was suppose to be my last year working for PIKOM. But i continued on for a month after paroimia. it is really time to get hold of my dreams and not let it go anymore. but my path is of God's and wherever or whatever i'm called for i will be there...

and i will not forget His calling and His plans anymore.....

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

and i will not forget His calling and His plans anymore.....

Thoughts for life??

Geez...I've never really blog much about serious thoughts, probably full of craps? XD

I guess I'm not so much of a thinker, I always thought philosophies are just the way they are. I make my own philosophy haha! I'm a simple-minded person and I would like to think simple at all times. And my mom and my sister worried about me because I'm like never really took things seriously. I live a life of freedom and financial is sufficient but not for future, yet. To me, family comes before everything else. And my mom is my everything apart from God. Maybe a lot of you don't know that my dad passed away when I was in primary school. So I want to spend as much time possible with my mom. As I'm the youngest, my family was afraid I could not support or take care of myself. Probably I did sometimes rely on my sister but I can be independent. I've drown many times when I simply threw myself in the open sea but I climbed back to shore.

After graduation I was kind of confused what I should do and all. I was stuck with PIKOM (events in ICT industry) for a year. I was hired based on projects. In and out I worked there. I was definitely in the wrong industry but since I had no other options available, I just continued. Besides, I worked with great people which I really looked up too. I learned so much from them and the bond that I've created with them, that makes me hard to leave.

Comfort zone just makes someone so hard to make a change. The first step is always the hardest as we're afraid of drowning. Fear overtakes us. I thought I wanted to have a life like any other - have a job and that's that for the rest of my life. However, when I really think - do I really want a life like that? Stay in the same company for 30 years down the road? What happens after that? Will I accomplish things I wanted and be satiesfied? Now I began to think of the life that I really want.

I wouldn't want to stay in the same company for 30 years and yet nothing happens. Some people still stay where they are no matter how hard they've worked. And the higher position you are, the harder you need to work. There's no stopping or even rest. When you're on holiday, business calls. How long that needs to go on? Hmm... I'm on the verge of exploring a better opportunity to live a life of freedom with sufficient finance for future!

I also want to chase my dreams of course, if not I would've wasted my 4 years in college studying fashion. In fashion industry, you know what's important? To establish your label and be famous. Fame's not important to me. I wish to bring happiness to people through fashion. Fashion is suppose to create confidence for people and not to pull down their confidence. You know what they say? Fashion is for skinny people. And plus - only rich people can afford fashion. Aren't all humans the same, come from God? We all should be treated the same. Everyone deserves to be beautiful - whether skinny or plus-size, rich or poor.

These are my visions. Live a life of freedom and to bring happiness through fashion! :D I finally found what I want to do. I'm afraid too that this path will lead me nowhere at first. But I believe in what I do and I believe in God.