Thoughts for life??

Geez...I've never really blog much about serious thoughts, probably full of craps? XD

I guess I'm not so much of a thinker, I always thought philosophies are just the way they are. I make my own philosophy haha! I'm a simple-minded person and I would like to think simple at all times. And my mom and my sister worried about me because I'm like never really took things seriously. I live a life of freedom and financial is sufficient but not for future, yet. To me, family comes before everything else. And my mom is my everything apart from God. Maybe a lot of you don't know that my dad passed away when I was in primary school. So I want to spend as much time possible with my mom. As I'm the youngest, my family was afraid I could not support or take care of myself. Probably I did sometimes rely on my sister but I can be independent. I've drown many times when I simply threw myself in the open sea but I climbed back to shore.

After graduation I was kind of confused what I should do and all. I was stuck with PIKOM (events in ICT industry) for a year. I was hired based on projects. In and out I worked there. I was definitely in the wrong industry but since I had no other options available, I just continued. Besides, I worked with great people which I really looked up too. I learned so much from them and the bond that I've created with them, that makes me hard to leave.

Comfort zone just makes someone so hard to make a change. The first step is always the hardest as we're afraid of drowning. Fear overtakes us. I thought I wanted to have a life like any other - have a job and that's that for the rest of my life. However, when I really think - do I really want a life like that? Stay in the same company for 30 years down the road? What happens after that? Will I accomplish things I wanted and be satiesfied? Now I began to think of the life that I really want.

I wouldn't want to stay in the same company for 30 years and yet nothing happens. Some people still stay where they are no matter how hard they've worked. And the higher position you are, the harder you need to work. There's no stopping or even rest. When you're on holiday, business calls. How long that needs to go on? Hmm... I'm on the verge of exploring a better opportunity to live a life of freedom with sufficient finance for future!

I also want to chase my dreams of course, if not I would've wasted my 4 years in college studying fashion. In fashion industry, you know what's important? To establish your label and be famous. Fame's not important to me. I wish to bring happiness to people through fashion. Fashion is suppose to create confidence for people and not to pull down their confidence. You know what they say? Fashion is for skinny people. And plus - only rich people can afford fashion. Aren't all humans the same, come from God? We all should be treated the same. Everyone deserves to be beautiful - whether skinny or plus-size, rich or poor.

These are my visions. Live a life of freedom and to bring happiness through fashion! :D I finally found what I want to do. I'm afraid too that this path will lead me nowhere at first. But I believe in what I do and I believe in God.