here i am again

i am here again to update my blog update the series of my life haha! i didn't expect to be invited (ulp!) again to ''pay a visit'' to this cybercafe.Haha notice the 'pay' n 'visit' which means this kind of visit really have to PAY wan ark!finally binded my drawings settle all e mounting boards blah blah and handed up to ma lecturer's table!so gOoOoOd!really felt so darn relieve as if i'm so free but not yet sigh...exam is so so so near lah!i have to start study already huh...borin!study for the sake of not failing for the sake not to waste my mom's $$. my friend asked me why i like to study cuz i was babbling about studies to her ytd...as if i like!i just want to study bcoz i didn't want to fail and re-sit and get kicked out!she seems quite annoyed why i study and she didn't want to study haih!Yea i do understand in fashion design course academic thingie is not that important but then we can expand our knowledge about this field...right...and when i say i wanted to further my studies to advanced diploma she so totally disagree!i was just wondering maybe she got diff thinking about all these maybe she wants more realistic things practical stuffs and not just havin a book full of words!i guess so but i'm both i do like practical stuffs too- alot but books is my cup of tea too! practical stuffs guess what we dont have it in my coll...ugh...so what to do?other than books?and notes?hopefully next year they will have the equipments! they dont even have a room for us to sew - the sewing machines.........they are just only building the drawing room maybe after chinese new year can be use ade.. n there's no dark room for photography so basically things we read we can touch or see. isn't it sad?we have to explore ourselves at elsewhere. yea explore i really need to do that! money money flowing my new year goals are these
- plan financial so can save more every month
- be more hardworking on courseworks
- explore more about fashion
- visit more fashion shows
- contact my old hometown buddies
- commited wholehearthedly to God!
- serving in church and community
- be a social worker

time running out! to be continued.....

just feel like it

just feel like writing today now at this hour. i'm actually in the hostel cybercafe chillin out a bit after working on tht drawings. really a bit relaxed yesterday really busy until when my friend invited me to yumcha twice,i also reject them twice!i read something that kind of scratched my heart...i read it once and then now i read it again my heart felt pain. at first i thought it didn't matter much but then i think again and it actually brings meaning to me. So i was kind of ...upset just a little bit though not gonna reveal whats that just me i know haha
probably some psikik ppl can find out about this....i dont know whether i believe psikiks or not but i've seen one on 'American's Next Top Model'. tht fella really knows their life and their things in life, it made them cry when tht fella reveals their past n their real self. the psikik did encouraged them about their weak and strong attitude so that they can improve more in their life. who i mean here is the model constestants for tht tv reality programme. i bought a new file, costs me rm2 only quite cheap though coz its a 'buy 1 free 1' thingie. i dont know why but that file seems to attract me to study! weird huh? i just think about study when i have that file maybe bcoz i can arrange my notes properly with tht file and also be systematic on my studies. as i said, i also dont have much time to study i think only about two weeks and my good friend kept bothering me about study study. ugh it kind of irritates me duh.. alright time running out now cant write more i'll update this when i get back to hometown peace people be strong..

worka freaka

worka freaka, simply means freaks at work. cuz i worked on my assignments like freak gal! probably a very common thing to all my seniors, a lot of assignments even when the exam is near but ppl have to really understand i'm in the first batch of this course, so if anything goes wrong it comes on us first then they will only fix it when my to-be-juniors comes in. this course is real fun and interesting but sometimes when lecturer failed to be an inspiration everything will be lost. we can find other source of inspiration - lots out there just imagine we are actually facing the same lecturer everyday again and again so if my tutor is inspirational i'm thrilled but not THAT lecturer. yes coursemates it's who you're thinking...and who i am thinking. she might be expert in art & design stuff maybe she just doesn't know how to transfer it to us. wrong way n not changing at all. sigh.. i've worked on my 41 pieces of fashion drawing since few days ago and everyone was doing the same thing - rushing for the assignment cuz we really dont have much time. she wants perfect work but so little time. my friend said its fun yea it is really but we dont do perfect work in one snap!hey we are learners!41 piece is crazy, everyone looked at me in disbelief when i tell them about it. i know this is neccesary for me to improve more and the right thing to do for my course but then again so little time? fuahh not easy at all. i totally agree with what malaysian international fashion designer Bernard Chandran said ''i dont make 20 garments in one day but i make one garment in 20 days" get what i mean?i think this should be the way yes young ppl like us need to be alive,lively and all strengthened. i'm only human and i get tired too okay need time to chill too. i worked on tht 41 pieces of drawing from noon to night and from night to morning. i stayed up from yesterday 9pm until this morning 6.30am. got some sleep until 10am and continued until 7pm. its crazy i even had to skip english class and my clean record of full attendance gone...yay and today is the last class...ugh. finally finished drawing n colourin with diff mediums now. tomorrow have to send for binding and the hand it up to the office. i have to say yes its cool experimenting with diff mediums and papers.. crayons, soft pastel, charcoal, color pencils & art markers. my fav is crayon n soft pastel. all right to have a conclusion to all this... i'm so relieved now tht i've finished everything and will be even more relieved when i hand it up. i thanked God because it was kind of a last minute work and yea its half my fault too tht i need to rush for it because i didn't manage my time properly. and i admit i'm lazy and so not lively with my works a bit bcuz of the lecturer too but guess at the end of the day its myself to be blamed cuz i wasn't flaming enough to do all this i didn't put my heart into it sigh... hopefully i'll changed no matter what circumstances may come or what situation i'm in or whatever kind of influence. i'll be more hardworking since this is what i always wanted to do since primary school - fashion design. i gotta learn the hard way and study smart. i dont mind the path is difficult i just need to have a flaming heart for all these like what my site is. this site really represents me cuz i always want to have a flaming heart in whatever i do especially things important in my life- yes above all flaming heart for Lord Jesus Christ no matter what happen through good times or bad times.

this is total freak!!the candles my friend gave me for birthday,its exactly what i want to give her on christmas!!same shape,same place that we both bought as well!!Fuyohh its such a wow!
And today as we were walking up the stairs,my right shoelace is loose....i was just about to say that when my friend said ''aiyak,my shoelace loose d!' oh my gosh its really darn freaky both our shoelace got loose and same right shoe somemore!whoaaaaa...my good ol'buddy, great minds do think alike yea?this is not the first time that our thoughts are the same...its very often!haha!
ugh...so sarcastic n so sam-pat lah...me...uhh....ciaoz lah

Thank God for His wonderful birthday blessing upon me!Thanks!My first year in college and i had one of the best birthdays in my life!Just that my family is not with me..i wish my mom shared my happiness!But anyway,it's such a joyful birthday!i really want to take this opportunity to thank all of 'em!My hostel friends gave me a suprise birthday party when the clock struck 12 and got a delicious chocolate cake to celebrate with me wow thanks to all of you Lina,Gracy,Pauline, Jessie,Sui Shan,Vivenne & Chin Hock!Thanks for the Doreamon collection series!!its something i've always wanted n u guys r so sensitive enough to know that!My hometown friends,churchmates n my dear friend in s'pore sent me b'day sms-es,its so sweet thanks ya all!on tht day itself i received gifts from my coursemates also my good good friends,thank you Agnes for the angel decor,its what i wanted as well!thanks Grace for the candles!!i lurve candles!you all seems psikik can read my mind to know what i want WOW hehe!thanks to Shi Rou for the Doreamon hp decor set i lurve it!!thanks Evon for the lovely necklace!it's quite vintage style n its so cuteee thks ya!Thanks for all who sent their blessings and wishes for me,i appreaciate it all so much!i had a wonderful birthday thanks to all of you!
YES YOU~!YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!

here i am again in the cc with my friend so at least got time to update this blog!hmm...i went to the KL fashion week n saw the designers there and their collections!AND its totally COOL!!Ahh Sebastian Gunawan my fav designer n also Tom Abang Saufi!!YESS i MET them!!The show is GREAT!my coursemates n me run here run there just to check out the collections n opened our eyes BIG BIG to catch the details of everything and everywhere we go!we even took pics with the designers over there.really excited to see so many different kind of things!one australian designer was so kind enough to teach us a thing or two!Fuahh...man it was amazing!the scene over there!so mesmerizing!so amusing!i personally liked the process more than its outcome...my friend and i observed closely how the garments are done n so i want to learn more about dressmaking and beadings!And and i went to mission trip in Raub,missed my aunty's 40th anniversary weddding dinner but i never never ever regretted it!!and i knew i won't!The trip was just awesome!!it was tiring but it gives me so much satisfaction i could not ask for more!From village to village we went,we played,we talked,we danced,we sang, n we jumped around haha!it was really fun!hope to join tis kind of trip again,to serve God with a full heart!Went back to taiping though but no time to meet up with my old friends!went back friday nite then the whole saturday *snap *snap *snap all for the sake of mr TPH.know wht i mean?the photography project lahhh mr TPH my lecturer@tutor aso wah dieee haha!the pics uhh...turned out just just ngam ngam fine onli...aih hopefully approved!came back kl just today with a whole bunch of things,i purposely haha bcoz i sat car mahh...my cousin bro drove me back wahhh so syok first time nonit sit bus!!!tomoro d bm presentationlah...color studies....n ms MCD's class ahhh!!tht day she cancelled the class due to staff dinner!!make us all miserable!darn!she could hv made the class earlier or announced to us earlier tht the class cancelled!Fuhhh!i think i better sign off now and do my work lahhh!now my room is a whole mess of things,only manage to clear some n put them under my bed...iskkk looked so so...so so...many things lah!my nature lah!at house my room aso a lot of things!n very dusty aso i better clean-up yoh!
peace ppl!!

Busy busy

Been so busy all this while!For two days,i've been out there from 8 am to 7 pm!PheW!and everytime i get so tired n really almost collapsed.didn't have good sleeps either!From monday until tomorrow wednesday,have to be out there to take pics for photography projects.this is exactly the busiest subject as my lecturer said it!the assignments always piled up on each other and now i've got two more projects on hand!Fuhhh its really tirin and ahha almost dieded lahh..it was like my tutor mr.tan asked us who's still alive?or dying?me n my friend replied dieded!fuhh fuhh fuhh pant pant** exhausted...must have breaks or nott...erhhhh and really not only this but other things coming up as well!Lord give me strength n patience!
can't stay here n type too long my time is runnin up...gotta run 2 mins to run aeghhefjkdjsafhk
chaoZ!

Back to K.L and tommorow classes starting!8 o'clock ends at 7pm!Lotsa work to be done especially figure drawing and photography!I gotta say the two subjects is my most busy classes.
Sighh...i have about like 6 potraits to be done, thank God i've finished 4 of it...not very good i can say maybe i'll rate myself 50/50.Even if i rate myself a little bit higher my tutor MCD maybe wouldn't think so!She wants perfect work!If i could draw portraits really well, i wouldn't be in fashion designing, i could be an artist already!This drawing thingie is fun but there's just something about MCD i don't enjoy!I don't know how to describe how, but there's just something about her!Stuck in this CC with my friend, i don't understand why but this computer practically vibrates like mad machine!My hands is shaking and it doesn't feel good that my hands is vibrating too as i type!I might abandon this blog again after today, hey well i don't have much $$$ to go to CC every week to online!Furthermore, the CIT in coll is - shucks!Poor connection slow stuff!I should be finishing my last two portraits now but since i remembered today is my friend's b'day, who is in US now so i guess i'll online so that i can wish him happy birthday.I couldn't sms or give him a call so MSN messenger is where we usually contact ever since he left for US. Oh i just remembered, i got into a really big trouble back at my hometown on saturday night when i went out with my old buddies!
This is what happen... my friend J was supposed to pick me up at FY's house after she pick up her friend,V.It was already 1 am and my mom already phoned me asking me to get home.So i told her i'll be going home soon.Finally J came and pick me up.She was drivin quite fast and CRASH!This stupid damn car made a hit and run case on us.It wasn't her fault, she did try to avoid but that car ARGHH.Which means i can't go home now. She wanted to find the car but in vain.(Of course we can't find it,we cant even see the plate number~!)We called a bunch of motorbike friends to help us find, practically searching parts of the town. I was desperate bcoz my mom wants me to go home, but in this kind of situation how can i ask her to fetch me home?She don't dare to go back home for fear her dad would scold her.So she asked me to shut off my hp as well so that her parents wont be able to reach us. About 2.45am, i was afraid my mom would call so i turn on my hp and my mom called. i told her about the incident, she asked me to go home straight away.Finally my J offered to fetch me home first.So i got home about 3am, of course my mom talk-talk, dint exactly scold.Fuhhh...i was kind of sad too that i made my mom upset and worried about me!I went to sleep and at 4 am something my hse phone rang a few times, my aunty picked it up bcoz i was asleep.My aunty told me its J so i woke up and called her back.It was already 5 am by then!!MY GOODNESS she still hasn't gone home yet!Is she nuts??
She told me she don't dare to go home.OH great!In the end i called her parents to tell them what happened and her parents call me to call her to come home first.So i have to call her back............being the middle person...arhhh...and AT LAST she agreed to go home.Fuhhhh i was so tired, my bus to KL the next day is 9 am. I didn't get a good sleep though so i slept through the whole trip to KL.Going back home at 3 am is supa-late,altho i've tried that before but arhh...i really dont want to upset my mom!Sorry mama!
Okayy...have to go...as the time goes by, my money runs short haha!Classes starting time to work hard again!I will learn hard coz this course is what i ENJOY most what!Yeah baby

A glimpse of my poem A Weak Prayer Strengthened...will post it up soon...i think its a bit too messy in words. 

Yo at last rested n settled down in my home sweet home!Sleep is one of my passion,now i've got it all!When i was about to arrive yesterday,my friend called n asked me to go out directly after i reach!That's supa-crazy..i mean like i've been all through that just to get home and they asked me to get out?As in get out?Dude,i'm tired and sleepy and of course,i had to reject their invitation...aww...everyone knows i'm lazy-to-get-out,yes n even lazy-to-get-up!Whoa?
Hehehe,i got home at about 1 am and guess what,i had durians...DURIANS!Something i havent been eating for like SooOoOOo long.i had durians at 1 am in the morning!WhoOsSH!Surely for the yesterday n today,i slept past noon,woke up n its time for lunch...its always seems to be breakfast+lunch tsk tsk even back in KL i did tht.Ha-ha.
Guess what,my mom got me a new mini-tele tht looked like a monitor for my b'day present!
Woww...mom cares about my entertainment!!Muachhh!I love my mom so much,she did everything just to keep me where i should stand...:)
Relax-relax is wht i do at home,it's so good!Had to even divide the time when i should online and when my sis should online.Her laptop is in fixing-repair position...duh.Its so hard just to arrange a time to meet my friends,they all have diff free-time,one workin as clerk,one workin as salesgirl,one i-dont-know-go-where,one alwiz busy....yayyyyyyy...and tomoro is my last day in taiping!Sob sob i dont wanna leave home!ARghhh...n dats bcoz of MCD's work plus POO's project,TWO somemore!I cant possibly bring all my stuffs back to taiping to do all my projects so i had to go back early....!!Everyone either goin bc on monday or tuesday but i'm ahead of everyone else...n i have to be extra-extra-extra careful when i'm back in hostel nowadays cases r spreadin everywhere...just only one girl got molested-or as they say it 'rape'
or robbery might even occur coz it happened before already!!YikeeSsS add more security pleaseee n don't curi tulang lah guards!SAFETY first!
Hehh..one whole stack of CDs on my right side of the desk - for what?I want to put all songs in my windows media player so i can have one range of diff songs collection for my own listening [or others] i wouldn't be so boring at least,when i get back to K.L!Goin back to K.L
means work work work got only time to breath no time to even walk around.Imagine after most classes starts at 8am and most classes ends at 7pm,how do i get more energy to browse around...unless its for assignment..which means photography cuz we definitely have to go out then only can take pics for the projects.After all the classes,i'd rather have a good bath,good rest n a good sleep before i can work on my assignments again.
I need to balanced my TIME out!EughhhH...i certainly have to...yEAa baby

All through just to get HOME!

fuhh..finally got home!so relieved!i arrived yesterday at abt 1 am...phew!

What happen was my sis asked me to wait at KL central bus stop so tht i could pass the bus tickets to her friends (i helped to buy d bus tickets to kampar for her friends)

I was suppose to pass d tickets when they got down from d bus, then i will got up the bus.Me n my sis will walk from kota raya to d pudu station.I waited so long there and then it started to rain heavily!My luggage also very heavy-my bagpack,my laptop n my mini-tele.And it got wet coz i put on the floor!Arghh.....n they r still not here yet!

My legs so tired....then suddenly my sis called and said tht i dont have to pass the tickets to them,i just hv to get on the bus!Because her friends suddenly changed their mind,they didn't want to stop at KL Central d!Yikess means i waited there so long for like---???nth?Kek sim!

Iskk..finally d bus is here and with all my heavy luggage,i ran under the rain to the bus and almost knock on someone when i was walkin towards d back seat where my sis sat.In this kind of condition,i couldn't give a warm greeting to her friends!Aduhaiii......

I was really upset at tht time....waited there so long...rainin samore....luggage so heavy samore...

but oklah nvmla...i wouldn't be upset so long anyway!my sis friends did sms-ed n said sorry.

We walked to pudu n couldn't find the shuttle bus to duta, asked a lot of ppl when finally a man told us n we rushed to the shuttle bus.It was traffic jam everywhere,we got there at 6.45pm,our bus suppose to be at tht time!Darnnn we are late!Eventually we got on the wrong bus-d bus to penang!lucky we got down just before the bus moved!

Our bus is late.........8.30pm only we managed to get on the bus!Yayyy!waited about 2 hrs there!

So relieved when finally we got on the bus,got our seats n our tickets checked!

My sis and i actually chit-chat all along the way,from K.L until we reached taiping haha!We sure got lots of things to talk since we dint see each other veri longg!

All through tht........just to get home,eh?Home Sweet Home!

On Monday 7th nov, my class ended at 7pm and i had to rush for my photography project coz its due tommorow!I worked with my friend on that for the whole night almost until 2 am and still not finished yet!Slept and woke up at 7am to continue our work again.
Then about 10 am, my another friend came to my hostel and thank her!!She helped me and i managed to finish it on time.my class starts at 2pm.Only at 1 pm,i finished it.Then it started to rain!Shucks!we walked to our class and for life n death had to protect the project from getting wet!
Finally, handed up the project but wet a little bit....and when the lecturer came in...another assignment for us!wa lau eh!due on week 9.....now aredi week 6.....and the printing process for contact prints need one week!fuah

I went to Muar Johor with my coursemate on Friday 5 nov,to her hse there.We planned to take pics together for our photography project. Since i didn't go back to my hometown n my cam still not fixed yet so i decided to go to muar! i can do my work n at the same time - travel!hehehe!Her family is sooo generous and my stay there was really welcomed!They treat me so good n i never felt hungry there!it's always food!

When i arrived, i had roti canai then had a delicious dinner!Mmmm!There's even supper!I had a plate of prawn mee and oyster!(slurp!)Tommorow morning, had tons of otak-otak n a plate of curry rice for breakfast.I accompanied my friend n her mom to hospital for a check-up, almost one hour there.Then we proceed to our pic-takin thingie.We went to the Tanjung Harapan where i took my pics - masjid jamek sultan ibrahim.after that went to Jing Ye Temple, my friend took pics of tht building.It was so certainly so much fun!

After sendin our films for development, my friend brought me to the shopping complex Wetex and i shopped for a few things!I got a new BUM wallet rm28, doraemon wall clock rm3.50 and candle rm3.90!yayyyyy......i wanted these things!!hehe

I had chicken rice for lunch, it is ball-rice, not the usual rice!kewl!At 6pm, we went to get our pics, and some turned out good, some didn't.At dinner, there's big prawns!wow!luv it!

Supper again - tuna egg sandwiches with a cup of oats!nyam nyam!hehehe!

Finally on Sunday, time to go back but our bus is at 3pm. For breakfast, had a bowl of ''pak chan'', the chinese ppl always cook it, for good health...its cooked with chicken and eggs!wow delicious!Then had lunch before catching the 3pm bus.By the time we reached, its pouring down and reached hostel at about 7pm.This trip is a good one!

phew!how long have i abandoned this blog!no internet access in hostel n the internet system in coll is so poor, so hard for me to update my blog!Ahaha...finally, my friend got wireless connection so i...hehehe..!!Assignments on hand - a lot!!but at least still got time to breath larrr
photo-taking all d time...wahh...but hard-le need to learn so much.....yea yea its fun!and then figure drawing....live drawing on practical sessions, interesting but - practice lots is a must to get to main point, main goal...........yeahhhhhhh......no giving up...never!!i like being busy...rather than nothing to do at all...up to herela...lunch awaits...fren calling so...till next time......

FAB 5 (from left) Ted,Jai,Carson,Thom,Kyan 

THE FAB 5 FROM QUEER EYE FOR THE STRAIGHT GUY 

Queer Eye For The Straight Guy

Wow!This is my all-time fav TV reality show!Queer Eye For The Straight Guy,goes on air every Saturday 12am so I can only watch when I'm in my hometown!No TV at KL...huhhh Totally enjoyed it,had been watching a few episodes of this show!

It's about five gay guys,each with its talent giving a make-over to a straight guy.Carson[fashion],pickin the right clothes for the right occasion and givin a complete stylish make-over!Kyan[grooming],all about shavin,skincare for men etc,Ted[food & wine] say what kind of food suits,what kind of wine,how to cook this,that etc,Thom[interior design]re-decorate the whole house,creating a new atmosphere in the house,totally luxurious!Lastly is Jai[culture]
talked about feelings n impressing a woman...They took the straight guy to luxurious shops,buyin furnitures,branded clothes,food and they will actually give some tips about all these,and everything is F.O.C!Imagine that,no cash has to be paid for all the re-decorate n make-over!Fuhh!But its a great show,watching them givin a total make-over n the outcome is always good!Its really cool n i would recommend all of you to watch this show.They even got an Emmy Award for this show!They also published a book and had a soundtrack album.It's darn interesting,can see a wide variety of things n learn!I watched just now,and they took the guy to a glass-makin factory where you can shape the glass into beads!It's so cool,it's D-I-Y bracelets n necklace!Wow n lots lots more other things!Gotta see it to know it though!
This,i guess is my last episode of watchin it!As i can only watch when i'm back in my hometown!I can say i enjoyed every part of the show!Here's pics of the five gay guys in Queer Eye For The Straight Guy.They are known as the FAB 5.

UNBELIEVABLE - ALBUM BY LEEHOMWANG great album, great songs, great voice!my all-time fav artiste.latest album is "Hear My Voice" japanese album 

Confused you made me
Sometimes visible
Sometimes invisible
Trapped somewhere
What is behind all that?

You didn't keep the truth
The thoughts that you have
Once on the left
Once on the right
Now its down to nowhere

Wondered if it's still alive
Or it's laid down died
For once it woke up
Then disappeared into thin air
It came before greatly
After that no more

A place in ROME 

Yesterday night,I went out with my friends to have a drink.Great to have met up with my long time friends actually, and talk crap most of it ha-ha!Stupify + lame = funny.Laughter always fill up this group of friends I have back in my hometown.Non-stop haha!Then, went to Euro Fun Park - regretted it!It was expensive,which means waste my $$$..and I had a terrible headache plus almost puke after one ride!The ride kept spinning n twisting round n round my gosh!Genting definitely better than this thousand times.Imagine that rm2 for entrance and rm8 for one ride.Ten bucks gone...not worth it at all!Never will I visit that place anymore!Hmm!Finished sewing the skirt - still have the blouse to sew.Its really hardwork,as a first timer i always got it done wrongly so had to re-do some.Sometimes,really felt crushed down cuz i had a hard time tryin to learn n remember the steps - how to do this,how to do that.
Sewing needs practice n every part of making the garment has to be perfect otherwise the outcome will not fit,low quality n not nice.Sigh..guess i really have to put more effort in all these n learn.Never will I give up!For God is with me!God is the only one who encouraged me deep down from inside, so my spirit is lifted up and I will work towards my dream!College is starting very soon, I have to concentrate on more things now hm hm no time to laze around already...tsk tsk hope the new semester that awaits will be a interesting one!Here I come!
Huhh...goin back alone this Sunday 3 hours ride to KL is very boring haihhh but will be meeting my friends soon at coll!Aikss...i haven't check out the timetable, dont even know what time have to be in class aiyahhhh!Well,time to say goodbye to home sweet home tsk tsk gonna miss my family+friends in my hometown a lot!Later have to pack things somemore haih lots of things to settle!Thank God for He will take care of everything,even little things and guide me!flaming fire for Him!

I loVe JeSuS n He loVeS mE!
LoVe iN CHRIST!
Thank God!Amen!

one of my inspiration,hope i can improve more!

This is it!Fashion from Bangkok!I found these on a website n find it so interesting the designs all with the cultural look with a sense of modern twist!So cOoL!These Bangkok designers are really good creative n innovate in mixing traditional & modern.The fabrics used are culture from bangkok wonderfully made 

design by Viroj Singhakul 

design by Viroj Singhakul 

design by Viroj Singhakul 

design by Tipayaphong 

design by Tipayaphong 

design by Teerabul 

design by Pichajak 

design by Pichajak 

design by Chaichon Savantrat  

Fuh!For the past few days, I had been learning a few basic sewing steps from my aunty.Thanks to her!Today, had some sewing practice, can say its my first time haha although I was an ERT student, a subject abt sewing n cookin stuffs.Hehe, from cutting to making a garment is definitely no easy-job but its really fun!Designing your own n making your own!I like this fashion design thingie,its just soooooo interesting!Now its just the beginning, so much to learn, so much to explore and I just can't wait for it!I want to learn more to improve myself and soon...i am going to be a dressmaker!Wahhh lurve it lurve it!Hehehe..really lookin forward to more of this course, hope I can dig deep into this cuz I really had a massive interest for it!Few more days and i'll be back to college though I dont feel like leavin home but I guess it would be wonderful to go back to learning n doin oh-so-much assignment n with all my friends there!Yeahhh!LEARNING,YES!want to learn more abt sewing hmmm yes yes hehe above all that...be commited to Him n His kingdom yeahhh a heart of flaming fire for our Lord Jesus Christ!

JeSus LoVes mE!

Dedicated to a multi-instrumentalist, also an artiste known as melody maker...

I might not understand all

But it caused me to explore

All that is in the songs

I can feel deep into it

Feeling all the way through

It gave me full emotions

It gave me full expressions

It gave me complete peace

Every song bring its own

Every word meaningful

Every music beautiful

Took my breath away

Flowing through my mind

Came in right to the heart

Pierced through my soul

Lifted up my spirit

Listened, the words captivating

Listened, the music playing

It's so wonderful

It's simply amazing

Be Positive Always

Never give up before you even try
Nothing is really over until you stop trying
Never say it's impossible before you
pursue the way you think it's possible
Never make yourself less worthy
by comparing yourself with others
Never allow obstacles to stop you
transform them into opportunities
Believe in working hard towards your future
Taking a step at a time to reach your goals
Always believe in yourself
Your happiness is in your hands
For if you keep staying positive
you can make your dreams come true!

-positive ideas-

I Love You

Here goes another story...not so much of good writing but this story was written when I was bored, staring blankly at my comp's screen and I started typing...suddenly the word 'love' just came to mind...broken hearts n love...hmm

David sat down on the couch in the hall. He had been talking to Sally on the phone a few minutes ago.And they’ve just call it off. Somehow,he was quite relieved because he felt like he had no more feelings for her. Breaking up was the best thing he could’ve done.He knew he was wrong but there’s really nothing else between them anymore. David hoped that Sally would be all right with that decision.She seemed so.
Then, Simon came knocking on his bedroom’s door.Simon was his best friend and that’s why they were living together in an rented apartment.
“So,Dave,have you talked to her?,”Simon asked.”Yea,I did.We’ve broken up,” Simon was a little shocked. While taking a beer from the refrigerator,he handed Dave one and said “That’s it?Just that?” Dave nodded. He explained that he himself never thought things would cleared up so fast.”Well,it is better for me to tell now rather than I hurt her more in the future”
They watched a game of football on the television and Simon went to sleep at 12.30 in the morning. David went out to the nearby café and had a cup of coffee. While he was sitting there,wondering to himself,he saw Sally opposite the road. He wanted to call her but later decided not to.What if she’s upset or angry with him? However,much to his surprise,Sally walked towards him,said hello and asked if she could sit down.”Yea,sure.”he replied.
“I’ve counted,”said Sally,trying to open up a conversation. David wasn’t really listening “What?” Sally repeated “I’ve counted…..how many hours since we broke up. David felt a little uncomfortable,wanting to get what Sally really meant. She still liked him?Oh no…He leaned forward,not knowing what to think or say. After a while of silence,Sally spoke again “You didn’t quite explained.Did you?Just a plain break up.Why?Tell me,Dave”
David’s heart was racing fast. Now he need to tell the whole truth,completely.Why did she asked?!David calmed down and tried to relax. ”Ummm,just that it’s gone”She looked at him “What’s gone?” She wanted a clearer explanation. He sighed and replied “What’s in the heart,Sally.Gone” He assumed that she understood as she didn’t say a word after that. It was almost 2.00 a.m. ”It’s rather late.See ya” He stood up and left. Sally stared at him as he walked to his house.
Sally was really hurt,she knew David did not like her anymore. She thought maybe their relationship could be saved if only she cling on to him. But,she actually realised that there’s not a chance. David was serious when he said “What’s in the heart,Gone” She cried the whole night, life seemed meaningless without him. She loved him more than herselft. But David might not know that. What more could she do?She knew David,he wouldn’t say something that he’s unsure of. Which means this time,he’s really dumping her.
For the next few months,David never contacted her,but did met her at some places.He smiled to him and she smiled back. That’s all they did. David went on working as usual.He was a profesion in computer programming. One day,his colleague,Jones invited him to a barbecue party at the beach. ”Come on Dave,you need to chill a little,don’t get stuck to your work all the time!”David laughed,Jones was one of his good friends and he’s always cheering people up.”Alright,dude”
At the party,there was really a lot of people. David got down from his car and walked towards the beach. Jones came running to him and dragged him to the barbecue place. David saw a girl and she’s quite pretty. Her dressing was simple,a blue top,a pair of jeans and a cap.She looked really sweet.”Dave,this is Andrea,she’s my sister’s friend,”Jones introduced her.David was a socialise person and he had no problems at all to be friendly.So he spoke up”Hi Andrea,I’m David.”She smiled and shook hands with him.She had a very beautiful smile.
Soon after,they began keeping in touch with each other and David was simply amazed at her talents in skateboarding and riding the DMX bike. She’s actually a skateboarding instructor.On Sunday morning,David would go to the basketball court for a game with his friends. He was resting on the bench when somebody tapped him on the shoulder.”Hi,Dave” He turned around and saw it’s Andrea! “Andrea?What are you doing here?” “Watching a game of basketball” She told him that she’s interested to watch only,not playing. David smiled broadly and said “All right,you can watch me play then!” Andrea gave a little laugh “I’m pleased”
After the game, Andrea praised his good skills in playing the basketball. “I’ve practised for a long time,since I was a child.I love basketball,it’s like part of me. ”She then invited him to watch a skateboard competition tommorow night at 8.00 p.m. “Will you be able to come?,”she asked.”Of course I will,I’ll watch you skate!” Andrea was really excited because she’s looking forward to that. David offered to take Andrea home. ”Thanks for the lift,”she said.
It was 7.30 p.m.David said he would arrive at the competition at 7.00p.m But,he’s still not here yet. Andrea was anxious and worried at the same time. She kept thinking of all the possibilities that he would be late. Still,she waited on until 8.25p.m. Then she saw David’s car.Her heart was filled with joy and relieve. David quickly got down and rushed to her.”I’m so sorry I’m late!I’ve got a puntured tyre just now”
“It’s okay,as long as you come. I’m just getting started,but do hurry now,it’s going to be my turn”So they went together to the skating ring.
Andrea performed well and got first place. She was thrilled and so was him.”Congratulations,dear!You were awesome.”Andrea hugged him “Thank you,Dave.” Soon after,they started going out on dates very often and grew very fond of each other. They were already close friends then. On one particular date,David confessed to Andrea that he had fallen in love with her.”Andrea,I really like you,I hope we can be more than just friends.I’ve never had this feeling before.Only to you”
Of course Andrea agreed because she also liked him a lot and was always hoping that she could be with him. Time passed,and they became even closer and loved each other very much. ”I love you,Andrea.I really do. You were the first girl that had made such a great impact in my life.”David said to her one night.She smiled and replied back “I love you too,Dave,promise me that we won’t be separated” He promised. And at the same time,Dave was thinking of a happy marriage with her.But,he kept it as a secret and planned to surprise her with a wedding ring tommorow night.
One fine morning,Andrea wanted to take David to a place. David was curious because she didn’t say where they were going. Finally,they reached the place,it was a christian cemetery. The place was up the hill and the scenery there was breathtaking. ”Andrea,who are we going visit?” “My sister,my beloved sister” They went to her sister’s burial and when David saw the picture of her sister,he got the shock of his life!He was so surprised!
Why!That was Sally!Sally was Andrea’s sister and she was dead?David went pale and his knees went weak.”What’s wrong Dave?You suddenly looked so sick.” David put down his head and pretented nothing was happening.”Nothing,nothing…urm..that’s your sister?May I know how she died?” Andrea told him all about it.”She commited suicide because a guy dumped her,my sister loved that guy a lot but he never knew. He left her all alone” Andrea wept a little while she put the flowers on the grave. David’s heart was racing fast. Was that guy him?
“Have you ever seen that guy before?,”David asked.Andrea said no because Sally had burned all the photos of them together before she killed herself. ”I don’t know who is that guy,but I knew his name. What a coincidence. His name was David too.” David felt like he could have just fainted there and then!Sally commited suicide because of him and he fell in love with Andrea,her sister!Andrea continued “I hate that guy. He’s the one who had ruined all my sister’s happiness”
David felt as if a thunder had just striked him in the heart. What on earth would happen if Andrea found out that he’s the guy who caused her sister to die? He was about to propose to Andrea!But now?It will be ruined….He took Sally’s happiness and now his happiness was about to be taken away?”Dave,come on,we can go now,” David was stunned and still wondering to himself.”Dave?Dave!” He looked up.”Are you okay,Dave?,”David nodded hesitantly.
After fetching her home, he couldn’t stop thinking. He had just told Andrea that he won’t be able to go out with her tonight. And tonight was supposed to be a propose to Andrea. He was disappointed,hurt and guilty all at the same time. Whatever should he do? He drove his car as fast as he could.While he was speeding, a motorcycle was in front of him.When he tried to escape, he lost control of the car and went sideways. His car crashed into a lorry. Before he could do anything,his sight went completely dark.
David was hurt badly and was admitted to the emergency wad. He had to undergo an operation. Andrea rushed to the hospital as fast as she could after the doctor phoned her. She was waiting outside the emergency room and was really nervous. She kept praying that God would spared his life. Minutes later,David was taken to the room. The doctor said “Miss,we don’t know whether he will survive tonight. But if he do,he should be alright tommorow.We've done all we could. It depends on him now.” She sat beside David’s bed and tears began flowing on her cheeks. He was still in coma. She cried “Don’t leave me Dave,I love you too much to let you go.”
He opened his eyes.”Andrea?It’s okay,I’m here.Listen,I need to tell you something.”Andrea wiped her tears a little but couldn’t stop crying.”What is it,Dave?”
“I’m sorry Andrea…I dumped your sister,I was the guy…..i was the guy……”Andrea stared at him in disbelief. ”But trust me,Andrea.I only got to know yesterday when I saw your sister’s burial. I really love you and believe it,I never meant to hurt you” Forgive me please….i love you….i love you.”Andrea was still there, didn’t know what to say.But suddenly,all that didn’t matter to her anymore. She knew she loved this guy no matter what he had done.
“I forgive you!I forgive!Don’t leave me Dave!I love you!” Andrea pleaded to him.David smiled “Thanks Andrea….now..i..go…do take care…I LOVE YOU ANDREA”
David breathed his last and his last words remained still in Andrea’s heart “I LOVE YOU ANDREA” She then found the wedding ring….she cried and cried.She broke down and could only closed her eyes,knelt down and …….”I LOVE YOU DAVE”

Found...

Life goes on
Stumbled upon a rock
Wind blew strongly
Cloud turned into darkness

Life felt hard to go on
Stumbled upon difficulties
Blown into sadness
Conquered by emptiness

Couldn't wake up like a rock
Couldn't stand up firmly
Couldn't balance
Couldn't see any light

Suddenly, a bright light
Shone upon me and lift me up
Set my feet upon the rock
Happiness and joy surrounds me

Everything is well
Everything is good
By His grace
I was found and saved

hmm..boring..i actually wanted to watch a chinese drama series which is about fashion design but no luck!The Windows Media Player won't work,and my family are watching another new chinese drama series on the VCD player.I played a few games on the websites which is fun and also not fun...found one really-lots-of-games webbie but i don't know what language is that!Almost 24 hours on the internet,I can say stopped only for lunch n dinner.
Fuahhhh and no,I'm not using LAN or Streamyx.Thought of calling my best friend who is in KL right now while I'm in Taiping...sigh..but my family's out there in the hall,what if they heard everything I am going to chat with my friend?!Not anything secretive or hidden,but then some might as well left unheard.Hehe...there's only one week more for break and sob* sob* sniff* I don't want to go back!!!HOME SWEET HOME mahhh...lotsa things on my mind actually,thought about getting myself improve in design and urmm...some sewing practice..ahhh..that'll be good.
Gotta tidy things up...list up things in case I forgot some important things I need to bring back to KL.It's been pouring heavily everyday n whole day!Wanted to play 'Partners',but seems like there's a little bit problem with it.
So forget it...this blog is cool,I can post anythin haha..I'm new to this blog thingie so just crap lahh...i think i better settle thingslaa then go ZzzZzzZZ..Sleep!Sleep is wow!Coz i love to sleep...haha!Shhh :P

a very meaningful song!its my all-time favourite song!

Light of my life

Wandering like a leaf upon the wind
I have been searching for someone
Holding out for a love to shake my soul
Heaven or nothing
Then you walked into my life
In a blaze of light
I've never wanted someone more
You are the one I've waited for

Light of my life
You are the fire in my heart
When I am lost
I know I'll feel you burning in the dark
You're the light of my life
Every star in the sky
Shines more brightly when you're at my side
You're the light of my life

Dreaming, I feel you next to me
No, I'm not, I'm not dreaming
Cause I'm drowning in your kiss
I die in your arms
And when I hear you call my name
Baby, it's like I'm born again

Your love's a lantern in the rain
Bringing me home time and again
Burning like an eternal flame

Light of my life
You're the beat of my heart
When I am lost
When you're lost I know
You'll see me shining
Shining in the dark
You're the light of my life
Like the stars in the sky
Only you can take me through
You're the only one who makes it right
Only you set fire to the night
You're the light of my life

a duet by Lara Fabian and LeehomWang

I Don't Know You

i wrote this about a friend back in my secondary days,haha..long time but i remembered....

You’re so strange
I felt like I don’t know you at all
Sometimes I think….
Your innerself is so full of lies
And beneath your realself
There’s another you

Something like a two-faced person
It’s as if you’re wearing a mask to face the world
Why won’t you just be yourself?
And pour out whatever is deep inside?
Or is it me…
That don’t understand you?

You’re so mysterious
I felt like I don’t know you
You kept everything away from me
You hide your realself
Never let me reveal what’s behind you

You are only acting
Putting a good show in front of me
How come you don’t let the show down
And show who you really are
I longed for your truth

But….
You didn’t gave me chance
To know you better
Cause you wont let your innerself flow
Flow through where I can see
And now….
I don’t know you….

Daddy...

It had been raining heavily the whole night.I couldn’t sleep so I got down from bed and looked out the window. I was shocked, I saw my dad standing in the rain!I immediately ran to tell my mom who was sleeping in the room.’’Mum,wake up!Dad is outside there!’’Then, we both went out to the house compound and dragged Dad into the hall.”What do you think you’re doing? You will catch a cold!” I heard my mom’s voice as I went to the bathroom to take a towel for Dad to dry himself. There was silence as I hand the towel to Dad.
After that, he went upstairs without saying anything, left mom in tears. I understood how mom felt at this time. Dad was having depressions lately and he would do other crazy things like locking himself in the toilet for one whole day .My mom and me were worried sick, thinking he might commit suicide.I confronted my mom “It’s okay,mom,Dad will get better” I too was in tears, the thought of losing my dad saddens me a lot.How would I not be?I loved my dad so much.
The next day,I didn’t go to school because I knew Mom couldn’t take care of Dad alone.I helped to do the household chores and went to see my Dad.Mom was cooking in the kitchen.Slowly,I walked towards Dad and spoke softly “Dad,can you please stop behaving like this?Mom couldn’t take it anymore” He turned to me,I saw his pale face and sudden;y he shouted at me “Okay!I can just die and you’ll be happy!”
He stormed out of the room.
I was much surprised with the words.Die?How could he say that?Tears began streaming down my cheeks.He used to be so loving and caring.Ever since he had some failures in bussines,he changed completely.He even had to take depression pills but it didn’t worked out fine.I was about to take a nap when I heard screams from downstairs.I quickly ran down,my heart beating fast,wondering if something awful had happened.I was right,Dad drank the washing liquid and fainted.My mom was wailing and crying.
Fortunately,our neighbour was in and helped to take my dad to the hospital.He had to be given special treatment and the doctor said that my dad would have to stay in the hospital until he recover from mental depression.It would be dangerous to keep him at home as he might try to kill himself again.The nurses promised to take good care of him.We went home to pack some clothes for dad.
But,of course,we couldn’t stop worrying so we stayed overnight at the hospital.For the first few days,my dad was slightly better and he started talking to us.He behaved nice and good,I was happy with the recovery.Finally,all would be over.The doctor gave permission to let us take Dad for a walk around the compund.
When we were out,happily,my Dad ran out to the roads and was hit by a car!We rushed to Dad and a passer-by called the doctor.Luckily,he only suffered minor injuries.I was dissapointed,I thought he had recovered.Dad was quiet all night and Mom,of course,crying.She even scolded Dad but it seemed useless.He didn’t bothered to listen. I could do nothing but to stay silent and just watched.
After a few days,my mom insisted taking Dad back home so that we could spend more time with him.The doctor agreed as he said support from family members might be able to help him.But,he would have to come back once a week for check-up.Back home,he did nothing,sitting there and I hope he would stay this way.I sighed,it’s weird to think that I had to keep all knives,scissors,any sharp objects or just anything that would be dangerous!Some of my relatives came,even my grandmother.She,too tried to advised her own son,my father.My dad listened patiently but I don’t know what he was thinking.Would he realised?
I bought some books on happiness for him to read and even wrote a beautiful poem for him to show that I really cared for him.I prayed to God it would give some positive effects.One cloudy morning,my dad said he wanted to drive the car to town.He said he wanted to go somewhere.Mom refused to let him do so.If he wanted to go,we would follow.Somehow,Dad managed to convinced us that he’s all right and wanted to be alone to solve things out.He promised he would come back.But…he went out and never came back.Both of us were worried.Mom had to take a cab to town and searched for Dad.
I stayed at home to wait and I was really afraid.What if he do it again?I recalled the hurtful words Dad said to me.Die….I dare not think.Minutes later,a motorcycle stopped in front of my house and he handed me Dad’s driving licence.He told me Dad commited suicide by jumping from a hotel’s window.I was terribly shocked!And Dad died on the spot.I broke down and cried as loudly as I can.How could he do this to me..and Mom?He promised!!!!
I had lost my beloved Daddy.I’m never going to be with him anymore.Mom couldn’t accept the loss of Daddy and kept asking me “Dad is still alive,right? I didn’t know what to say as I myself found it hard to believe as well.What’s going to happen next?My heart was broken into a million pieces.I could only closed my eyes as I resembled the sweet memories we had together….

some part of this story is based on my life experience, many things happened that even words couldn't tell....

The Ultimate Salvation

Shannon sat down on the floor and began to cry. Her tears kept rolling down her cheeks no matter how many times she wiped them. Mom was calling from downstairs for dinner but she didn’t care, nor does she want to respond. “Shann! Come down for dinner, would you?” Finally, she got up and walked out of the room. She moaned because she knew her parents would ask her what happened and she didn’t want to tell. “What’s going on? How many times you want me to call you for dinner, huh?” Mom was furious but Shannon didn’t reply instead she ate her food and immediately ran up to room after dinner.
Shannon is the only child in the family so her parents always tend to control whatever she did. Dad wasn’t at home most of the time, he worked long hours in the office. But every time he came back, he would only talk to Shannon about school. Mom would sometimes drop by at the office and visit Dad to talk about the latest condition of the family and financial stuffs. Shannon didn’t like that, she thought her family is too commercial, there’s no sharing or excitement at all. The topics finance, work and school were always brought up in their conversations.
Her mom wouldn’t be able to share her problem because every time Mom would give not so encouraging advice. Today was really a bad day for her. She failed most of her subjects miserably in the final exam. She wasn’t too determined to study because she felt that no one ever appreciates her and she felt no use of doing things that nobody cares. Even though she had friends, but they
was just the kind of friends to have fun and not to be there for her when she needs them. She continued crying and she could hear Mom complaining to Dad about her bad manners.
She can hear Dad coming up the stairs and then knocked on her door. “Shann, open the door. What are you doing?” Shannon sighed and went straight to bed. She didn’t want to reply her dad. Dad kept knocking and was very angry when there was no reply from Shannon. “Bring the room key!”
Shannon’s eyes widened, she knew her dad would shout at her. Dad opened the door. “Are you really asleep or are you just being bad?” He switched on the light and pulled her from the bed. He saw her red and swollen eyes. “Have you been crying? Are you hiding something from us?”
“There are lots of things I’ve been hiding because you don’t understand me at all!” Dad kept
quiet for a moment and then replied “What do you mean I don’t understand you? I did everything for your sake and for you to have a good living! Now you’re telling me these?” Shannon looked at her dad straight in the eyes and then turned away. She cried even more. “What’s the use? You worked hard to gain money for a good living, but money didn’t mean love and care for me! Nobody appreciated me and nobody is there for me when I need somebody! Now I’m torn, it’s your entire fault!”
She tried to run away but her dad held her back. She managed to slip from his hands and ran as quickly as she could. Mom was shocked, she stood there in the living room and didn’t have chance to grab Shannon. “Shann! Where are you going? Come back!” Then Mom and Dad ran outside but she was nowhere to be seen. They searched the entire neighborhood and even called up her friends but in vain. Mom spoke up “What have you said to her? Why did she run away? What is going to happen to her now? Why didn’t you console her properly?” Dad didn’t know what to say but he was furious and worried at the same time. “Are you saying now it’s my fault? You didn’t care much about her either when she was here!”
Mom was surprised. “What are you talking about? I’ve been there all along for her! But you only cared about your work!” They argued for the night and finally stopped when the phone rang. Mom picked up the phone, it was Shannon “I never want to come back again! Have you really cared for me, Mom?” Mom began to cry “Shann, what is it now? I gave you everything you wanted” Shannon began to cry too “No, what you gave me means nothing at all to me! I felt lonely all the time and I did badly at all things in school because you weren’t there for me when I was down! One thing that I never received before was LOVE!!!” She shut down the phone.
Mom cried uncontrollably and said to Dad “Was she right? That we didn’t care about what she felt? And that we put work and money first before her?” Dad kept his head low and began to give a thought about what Shannon said. “She’s right; I worked almost 24 hours a day and didn’t have the time to share life with her. All we did was talk about school” Both of them sat silently and was in each other’s arms. The next morning, they called up the police and the press. They posted their daughter’s loss in the papers and asked her to come back. A week passed and still there were no news from Shannon. She didn’t go to school either nor did friends and relatives saw her.
Dad didn’t go to work and stayed at home with Mom. Both of them were very worried of their daughter’s condition. “What are we to do now? Will we lose her forever?” Mom began crying again.
Dad kept quiet. Mom shouted at him “Why didn’t you answer me? You don’t care at all!” Dad hugged her and said softly “Don’t worry, okay? We both care about her, you know that. When she comes back, we’ll apologize and this time we’ll do it the right way.” Mom nodded “We’ll love her” The next day, one of Mom’s friends; Carrie came to pay a visit to the family. She asked how they were doing and was kind enough to pray for them and their daughter. So they prayed together.
She told them not to worry and that God will bring Shannon back to them. Carrie then invited them to church for tomorrow’s service. At first, they had doubts of going because they rather stay at home and wait for news. Carrie said this before she left “All things come from God, my dear friends”
She came again tomorrow morning and they agreed to go to church with her. They stayed at the church until the end of the service and wanted to leave because the police had called them earlier to talk about this case. But Carrie stopped them from leaving and said that the church would like to pray for them. They were determined to leave but because Carrie insisted, they stayed.
So the church prayed for them and after the prayer, Dad saw that it was late and was in a rush to go home. Just as they were walking out of the door, Mom saw a girl with her clothes torn and she was in a very bad condition. The girl looked up and Mom saw that she was Shannon! Dad saw her too and all of them started to cry. Shannon didn’t run away but instead she ran into her parents and hugged them. They too hugged her warmly. “You’re a miracle to us, Shannon. Dad and Mom are sorry for what we had done to you. Will you let us love you now?” Shannon smiled graciously and replied “I am sorry too, I love you both!” Carrie came to them “God had shown kindness to your family, share this love of God” On the very day itself, the family accepted Christ and was saved. And in the holy church of God and His great grace unites this family. Amen.