On Fire by Switchfoot

This songs speaks so much about me and where I'm standing. Thanks Eugene for sending me this song =)

On Fire by Switchfoot

They tell you where you need to go
They tell you when you'll need to leave
They tell you what you need to know
They tell you who you need to be

But everything inside you knows
There's more than what you've heard
There's so much more than empty conversations
Filled with empty words

And you're on fire
When He's near you
You're on fire
When He speaks
You're on fire
Burning at these mysteries

Give me one more time around
Give me one more chance to see
Give me everything You are
Give me one more chance to be... (near You)

Cause everything inside me looks like
Everything I hate
You are the hope I have for change
You are the only chance I'll take

When I'm on fire
When You're near me
I'm on fire
When You speak
And I'm on fire
Burning at these mysteries
These mysteries...

I'm standing on the edge of me [x3]
I'm standing on the edge of everything I've never been before.
And i've been standing on the edge of me
Standing on the edge

And I'm on fire
When You're near me
I'm on fire
When You speak
(Yea) I'm on fire
Burning at these mysteries... these mysteries... these mysteries
Ah you're the mystery
You're the mystery

it's been like 2 months ago since my last blog, but then today, somehow there's something to write about (which my friend evon, said today is memorable must write down) LOL

okay how do i even start?this lecturer Ms N has been in my class close to 3 years. Well, everyday we've been complaining about her attitude, it's not that she's evil - she just have this somehow controlled and conservative mindset, a person who just wants it all her WAY. i mean like hello? you are the lecturer and you are suppose to be open-minded and able to receive people's ways and not just all about you.

and that FACIAL EXPRESSION!dude,her face turns black (i mean really black) wherever we propose our ideas. you can see her face changed completely and totally crashed my mood down. The day before her class, I could already feel the tense she's giving me. She became very sulky when she doesn't get things done her way. (Hey, she's 27!) And she's a freaking lecturer!!And she's acting like a big baby. Grow up! When we talk about certain topic, she just somewhat turn it around to say it her way. Arh, when me and my friends see her face, we totally don't have the mood to say anything already.

We told her we couldn't meet the deadline and seriously its damn hectic, six garments in 3 weeks?!!and with storyboard, accessories, illustration, portfolio?? KNOCK KNOCK!! get your head in larr...how are we suppose to finish all of that. okay fine she decided that we don't have to do the accessories part, dohhh it doesn't help at all okay? she have wasted the whole of november planning the accesories and now she want to cancel it lar?? man, she just burnt my 1 month's time into thin air. And last sem where we suppose to start our garments, she wasted the whole sem doing our 'less than 50 pages thesis' Again...time gone.

as a lecturer, aren't you suppose to estimate the time properly already, pushing us to do our work instead of coming in everyday to class, showed our progression just a little then proceed to chit-chat for like 3 hours? AGAIN! that's whole lot of time wasted.tsk tsk tsk she always say we can,we can...yea we can do it but can we just do it our way? we are final year students and we can manage already maa...u want to control everythin samore then forever we dunnit to finish lo?? like what gc said 'we went two steps ahead and she pulled us back to step one." like that really forever one step behind lo?

why is it always have to be her way? her mind really put in a small box never step out of the box ge lor....sigh...she always make us so tense, never stand at our position and think wan?
oh well, today we complained about her again to another lecturer Ms H...lols this lecturer darn farnee, she also talk together with us!and she also said that Ms N does not only treat students like that, even other lecturers. controlling and manipulating ethin. self-centered.

funniest was that Ms H said "aha now you know her attitude" omg even other lecturers also already know her attitude is like that. she even said that when you get too close to her then you know her well enough and will eventually began to drift away...i guess she have this slogan "its me, me and me. its my way or the highway" =.='

sigh..really miss him. i felt something missing, cuz we din talk today. we usually do.

its really wonderful talking to you..whether face-to-face or sms-es. its like i felt i have nothing to hide, i can just be myself. its comfortable talking and talk and talk so much with you. and there's just no ending.we could talk for so long and so much things to talk about!! maybe bcuz when two people who likes to talk, bcome like that lar ha ha ha. but at least we give and take. we listen and talk.talk and listen... =)

I was in my own world.Restless.He noticed.

The moment came in silence
I was in my own world
My mind went blank and empty
Running through my brain

Words came in like a whirlwind
I don't know those words
But they came out from me
Where was I going?

I kept putting it together
Just couldn't take it all in one
It was revolving in my mind
I couldn't get a hold of it

sigh..where was i, really? why? i didnt pull nor let go.I just dont know.what was it?i heard something.i really hope i wont see that happening again.its gonna be really depressing.

i think its already breaking...>_<

how long has it been? 3 months of internship and have gone through lots of things that cant be put into words.phew!

how do i even start? might as well leave it just as it is..in my thoughts...just TOO much. Life aint blog.haha

hmm..well,i've plan to start a blog on bridal wear because that's what i want to major in. So then i could post my designs there and receive views from people. I'm preparing a thesis for my finals and it's gona b a collection of bridal wear. yay!

one of the reasons i chose this major it's because, it's a joy to design for people getting married and marriage is the sweetest thing! I love to see the joy in these people, being on their best attire. the BIG day. =)

Without realising..today is already my 5th day at work.Things were going pretty well for me and I'm starting to enjoy work as I adapted to the working environment,my colleagues and tasks that needs to be done.Oh well I did stock count to knickers and underwear on my 4th day of work and there are like hundreds of them,crazy!!I'm really quite getting the work now and its fun and with a bunch of funny and crazy colleagues,work is cool.hahahaha!

Today i attended another training class that is - CS.Stands for?Counter strike.Nah of course not! haha its Customer Service.Its a talk where we were trained how to serve customers and give excellent customer service.Its really quite useful and helped me to developed better in serving different kind of customers.Well,nothing much other than the usual serving customers today. But I get real satisfaction when customers are happy with my service,n what i've chosen for them,and bring the products they want to purchase to cashier counter!!It's really a joy to see my customers walk out with a happy mood!=D

Standing were - of course tiring when there are nt many customers,it's really boring.This is the time where sometimes I walked up to colleagues and talk (ha ha ha)bt not too long, my AM will start to look at us LOLs.both my store manager and assistant manager were really nice guys, were willing to teach and my assistant manager are ready to care for my needs and answer my doubts.YES he arranged morning shift for me on saturday so then after 6.30pm i'll be able to rush for TSF.And when he arranged me for a Sat off then I can attend both service and TSF.I really thanked God so much that now i'm adapting and enjoying work.

Thanks to Jesus!!Amen.!
I'm having off on Tuesday,not fixed which off day every week.But gona go hit the gym and watch movie.I shop for two pairs of shoes just now, after work.Ha ha one from Nose and one from Vincci.Oh yeah that day I got a real worth purchase from Kenzo perfume!They were having such a good promotion that i just couldn't resist.I bought Kenzo Amour 100ml free Kenzo Summer 75ml,Kenzo Summer body wash 150ml and one Kenzo Amour Miniature. All for rm290.Its really quite worth it as all these would costs about rm500 if it's at normal price. And i really like the smell of both Kenzo Amour and Summer!Even my hsemate decided to buy it after i showed him ahahha!!I've always always wanted a Kenzo perfume.When Kenzo Flower was out,I just couldn't bring myself to buy it as I was just okay with the smell and it wasn't on promotion.But finally THIS!!I love it and its worth it! YAYY

work work work!!KENZO rules.JESUS is the greatest!!

2nd day of work

Phew~!2nd day of work and i feel like i've done a lot of things..tiring.I attended the 'new employee orientation' from 10am to 5.30pm.Its basically a talk to tell us about the company history,background,the garments,fabrications,etc etc.Well,I met several people from other outlets,other brands like Dorothy Perkins,Diva,Topshop KLCC etc. And we had group activites in which I joined up with two girls frm Topshop KLCC (waiting SPM results) and a girl younger than me a year from Ms.Selfrigde MV.Its kind of interesting to know that all this brands are together under DNP Sdn Bhd and that we are a family.Yoshinoya is also under DNP!ALL one 2gther haha

The talk was quite useful, but i felt sleepy at times.my assistant manager and another colleague also attended the course with me.Really sleepy..haha.Communications with other colleagues raised up a bit better,hpfuli will get better in the near future.Some of 'em jz wouldn't bother abt me greeting them,smiling at them (as though I'm a freak) I got along well with the 2 girls frm topshop KLCC bt dey r nt wrkin wit me!!And the girl frm Ms.Selfridge too.We had lunch 2gther today and got along pretty well.Oh and also the supervisor frm Ms.Selfridge.psstt...i'm adapting 2 da uniform.. >_<

My assistant manager is a real nice guy...haha(nvm,he's nt gona find my blog,wayy too impossible!)I have only one problem right now..i'm working 6 days a week and my off-days are all weekdays.I wouldn't be able to go church on saturdays...i talked to my AM today.. probably he could arrange for me to have morning shift on saturdays,at least I will be able to attend TSF altho I won't be able to attend the service.But I didnt want to beg/force him because I know its the company policy and they are very strict with us and our schedule. So I told him it's all right (i'm wrkin noon shift tomoro).I'm not sure if he cld arrange 4 me 4 the following weeks.

O Lord,give me strength and patience each day and wisdom to do your work and your will!
As long as I have Jesus with me,I will not be afraid of anything,anyone and never give up.
Thank God.Amen. =)

first day at work

Today,first day of work...getting an uniform one size smaller is obviously un-flattering.Uhh, hope that next uniform will be better!Anyways,working at Topshop,they have two new uniforms every week.Before starting my afternoon shift,we will usually have a briefing from the manager.Oh wow 1st day of work,other sales coordinators got some "advice" from the manager haha about punctuality,absence and stuff.The people there,I'm not sure to say nice or not?Cuz not much chance to talk..we have our own departments to take care of.I guess they are all nice, haha shld take more time.Not very talkative I say,i aso don have chance to TALK!(aih..God,help me please)
I realised Topshop is very very big company,including its partnerships its really a huge production.However the manager is quite nice, seems willing to train me and the supervisor also quite nice...(i think the manager is quite strict) bt i dont blame him,he has a lot of people under him and working with him,if he's not stern then people would not follow his orders.
Anyways,what I did today (sigh,its sales)..which is I have to help push sales target and serve customers with manners,smile,greetings,..encouraging them to buy and etc etc.its really boring when there are no customers,and you stand there doing nothing (which then I started walking to my colleagues and talk,and examining how they sew the garments) >_< hpfuli will have better communication with my colleagues.(its first day!!) I sometimes make the blur face when my manager tells me something and he ended up looking at me very blur as well ha ha ha ha sry dude. XD XD

Tomoro i'll be attending 'new employer orientation' from 10am to 6pm.Wah i have to exercise my ears.bt its kind of interesting that i wrk from bottom and meet a lot of diff kinds of people..

ah..sleepylar..nites ppl.

Internship

Finally after much weeks of anticipation and waiting..the internship company called me for confirmation.Suddenly called me today(while I was in the cinema!)asking me to work tomorrow. Wah so freaking sudden,i was shocked.Anyways,I will be working at Topshop,Midvalley. Great its near my place.I have to work as promoter and take care of the store stuff first though before I could proceed further.I think it is important for me to know how the store runs beforehand. Thank God I worked as promoter before,if not I guess I'll be panicking right now HAHA!! Really praying that I'll get good boss,good colleagues and good communication haha yeah~~

Yay Judah and Xiao's wedding was fantastic~!!Xiao was ever so pretty and Judah(ah-hem) looks real good wahaha

anyways,me n my 2 other friends slept over at Xiao's the day before the wedding.And i also accompany Xiao to do her manicure and pedicure.(I tell you,its comfort man!)
Many relatives and friends came to her hse that night,and we felt kind of ackward because we just couldn't blend it.I mean the relatives - how to talk lar?LOL there are many good foods~!!and xiao's family is so warm towards us. I think about 11 somethin,we got kind of tired and went up for bath and gonna sleep.Then Xiao came up,and we gave her luxury!!what is it?haha massage - three of us massage for her haha (laee..bride-to-be, we give anything she wants) hehe

Tomorrow morning suppose to wake up at 5.30am..hm..but the bride still lazing on the bed~ The make-up artist was late anyways.But Charlene and Marcus were here by 6.15am already.Ate breakfast then the make-up artist came at about 6.45am - i think~!Just before she could put finishing touches to Xiao's hair,POOF~!the electricity went out.gosh it was so hot!and we had to borrow electricity from next door - using extension wires for the standing fan. Probably about 9am, the groom and his 'heng tais' is here already.Gehe time for the games~!!! however we couldn't play too long as the bride is so heat up (o i mean its hot and reali couldn't stand so long)

O well,first we asked them to sing CNY song, and they couldn't sing~!!LOL ok at least these words came out 'Gong Xi, Gong Xi, Gong Xi.... =_=' Then asked them to sing love songs! this should be easier right...and the best man Arnan sang an indian song which we 'chi muis' couldn't understand a single word.and we requested must sing in english!Alright in the end, ONLY YOU came out.haha and sing until didn't want to stop even when we said stop (too into it already) haha!

Lastly,to prove their sincerity we asked them to put on lipsticks and kiss as much as they can to fill up several papers.haha one of them was forced to put lipstick on him but he didnt want to! in the end,also have to, time is running out.And some of them did willingly put on lipstick and kiss on the papers LOL~!!this is not so bad !after that,give one big angpow XD XD

hahahahah after some singing and words in front of the bride's doors, finally DOORS open and the lovely couple came down for tea ceremony.

Was really really really happy for Xiao.I guess when she walks down the aisle, i felt tears streaming down it was so touching~!!my beloved CG leader,even now u are in YC,but i will always miss you and will definitely keep in touch~!!still same church wert!hehehehe lots lots of love muaxxx

p/s will post pics soon

Xiao Wen and Judah, bride-to-be and bridegroom to-be, tying the knot on 10th Jan 2007.. =)

A friend dedicated this song to them...And the lyrics goes like this - - -

A brand new day
For you and me
In this place as husband and wife
We'll be holding on
'Till we grow old
Together forever and ever

I promise you
That I'll please you
With my endless love and passion
And I will never leave you

This is a journey that will never end
We'll have our children names Jeremy and Felicia
We'll have a beautiful house
With a bench and apple tree

I know this sounds too much
But this is a brand new day

Brand New Day by Ten2Five

i've done the dress for my friend, and sweet! my good friend Charlene got married last week. Really so happy fo her and Marcus, the husband.Very sweet =)And my beloved CG leader Xiao is getting married to Judah~!YaY its on 9th Feb. another sweet sweet memory.Very happy for them as well =D Congrats yeah to Xiao and Judah! CHEERS

Oh well, i'm having my semester break right now.And making the vest and pants for Xiao's flower boy.At least something to keep my hands on.If not i'm really bored out!I have like one month's break.yea yea i know, i should be enjoying my sem break.OK i'll just get my hands on more things, let not the sem break slip off just with sleeping and online.hehe

Will be going back hometown probably a few days after Xiao's wedding.HOME SWEET HOME..^-^ What will I be keeping my hands on at home?hmm..spend time with my mom,usually I go out with mom during weekends and watch TV together during weekdays.Oh yeah i still need to have a wardrobe clean-up and my mini-studio clean-up.Things are really pretty messed up when I'm doing work.hmm..

My coursemates and me, attending the Malaysian International Fashion Week at KL Convention Centre
=)

xchange

yoohoo hoo

i decided to change back my blog to here instead of friendster haha. been half a year, dude!
o well, i'm doin adv dip now in 2nd sem, tough tough aha.

wat have i been up to?assignments and more assignments!my sem going to end soon so have to finish up all my final assignments. i have machine embroidery class and now doin a dress with embroidered lace.(my theme is poker cards, the queen,king & jack) the pattern hoo!, is complicated and real tough piece

i've got exactly 2 weeks to complete a garment which i designed for a friend, with payment yeah haha.real excited to do it but right now haven started doin yet, i'm real busy wit my own assignments.its just a matter of "starting!" its like for me, once i start doin it den i'll do it all the way non-stop.

with Him, Lord Jesus Christ i;ll be able to swim thru any circumstances, thank You Jesus!AMEN!

cheers ppl

months since i ever blogged - ha!

been reli busy for the past semester,rushing for my final project - a mini fashion show cum exhibition and plus planning on movin out from hostel to another place.

felt like time reali flies by fast.here i am now, had a sort of successful mini fashion show, it went great despite sleepless nights,pressure and mad-like rush.Thank God!During my relaxing time in hometown, waited for my sis to find a place for us to stay. I read a book Big Stone Gap. a long story but its interesting and boring in certain parts.i finished it anyway and its a good book, i realised a lot of things about life and people.I also managed to meet up with my ex-classmates.

On 1st june, my friend sms-ed me,told me to go to class for advanced diploma. i wasnt even ready for that and i havent settle down in KL yet.So there i was, struggling to choose between TARC and Raffles Institute.the latter had very interesting offers, telling me my diploma is recognized and that i could continue adv dip - transfer my credits and they had interesting subjects. Raffles had a recognition that attracts me. however, i felt like stayin in tarc cuz its more affordable, my gang is there, i kind of stuck to my lecturers, the ppl i connect with, the environment that i've got so used to. and i want to make it happen in TARC although its not as prestigious as raffles. somehow i actually like not-so-famous stuffs.haha. i thought about working with Peter Hoe, a batik-designer, he's not a very famous designer but i liked him and his design personality.

felt like i actually could make something out of tarc with my friends there too. believe it or not, we only got 5 students continuing adv dip.the rest had left either working or slacking. i seek for God's guidance and finally i decided to stay with tarc. they had a new lecturer - 10 yrs experience in UK.wow?

i'm pretty excited abt startin adv dip.its like a whole new era for me. i went late a week and assignments had been pouring in and now i'm trying to catch up. i didnt miss much, thanks to the Lord, that i want to start 2 discpline my studies and assignments.i want to make the best out of it,i'll try.

btw ppl, i hv moved to Millenium Condo, Dataran Millenium near to Asia Jaya LRT station. many ppl asked me why i moved so far away. i guess its ok that i had to travel every day - my coursemates are all from KL and now i get to travel with them everyday and my friend is pretty excited too that we r goin coll 2gether n takin e lrt bc together. its kind of fun. hehe i gonna miss life in tbr too, my frens r mostly gone now from tbr too. i had a great time in tbr haha!

ciaoz.till then.

Yay!Christmas is coming~can't wait!HaHaa

Cf christmas night just over[on my birthday as well] hehe.it was wonderful and AF rawks!its over now...i dont know 2 feel relieved or not?i mean its over,can reduce my workload bt..haha i love that night!it was so sweet and beautiful!Thanks everyone for their birthday wishes & gifts - i had a really blessed birthday thank God!Amen!

I thank God that i went to taiping camp after all despite all the workload & stress i'm going thru. it was really a blessed break for me there.i get to meet my old buddies,it was all so sweet!God's presence was really felt there.Amen! i had a great time and yeahh B.O.G rawkz for Jesus!keep rawkin!!you guys are the best,keep going for Jesus!!

Many more events to come,last Sat it was the Christmas musical [Once Upon a Love Story], it was amazing!nice singing,dancing,drama - wha lah!tommorrow i'm watching it again - yay!haha!today got christmas party at Charis house - whoa so nice so nice!!and on 23 having HF party yay!on 24 my sis havin party yay!on 25 christmas service yay! ps.daniel's open house party yay! partypartyparty for Jesus was born!Amen!its time for feista Jesus Christ!!

wow...haha..i'm being so -joyful?I AM!!christmas is sooooooooooooooooooooooo nice!!lovin'it!!!yay yay yay yay woohoo!!oklah i got 2 more final assignments to go,praise the Lord for guidance and really need to seek Him more!
JESUS CHRIST

love in Christ

its not about him after all.its me.things got completely out of control and i broke down - this time really really broke down.i just needed someone to talk things over and i called up my great bro...he listened and so caring - and he prayed for me over the phone - i was really grateful, i felt so much better after that.i continued doing my work. if it wasn't ytd nite tat we talked,i would feel like almost dying.i guess i was overworked.too MANY things.

however,i got really sick this morning.i had fever last nite,ate panadol and it subsided.bt tis morning i had terrible sore throat and flu.it was unbearable at first.after that i took bread for breakfast then swallowed Strepsils regular. right now i've already taken 2,and my throat is a bit better.and my nose is no longer stucked.i prayed to God for healing and i know He will,i'm slowly recovering.Thank God so much!!thanks to my caring bro too...i'm so grateful to have him through this.

hopefully i will be able to settle everything before taiping camp...i really want to enjoy myself and take a break from all the workload in coll.

Datai mrintah ka ati ku,Datai Yesus nyadi Raja ku (As we worship,build Your throne,come Lord Jesus and take Your place)

the amount of work I need to do is just crazy and overwhelming...crazier than anyone could even think of. and there's one point of time where I actually felt so much like breaking down. i sat alone in one corner and just wander off - drawing things that hopefully could just take away all the distress i'm experiencing.but did it?no, really i just couldn't take my hands off the paper - really really really hope that it will go away and that i don't have to think so much and so much to do.

i tried to control my tears. things got only a little bit better and i still have like a million things to do and so little time. one thing i have - faith. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. God is the only one I held on and that kept me strong until today and forever. i dont know how to describe the things i need to do.. firstly assignments have already kept my hands busy plus in-charge of design in CF christmas night [alot needs to be done on time] plus serving and fga tpg camp is coming up.I'm really looking forward to seek God even deeper there. A break from all things but Him. I'm grateful to dedicate all things in the Lord's hands and for His glory. I may not be in control but He is in control.

Even now as i type, i felt like crying my heart out. It's just outrageous how many things need to be done and I have like a week to complete - or maybe only 4 days.

I stopped for approx 3 mins
Cause I drop something
Diamonds falling like rain
I caught hold and went on

Tears have begun to fall down. i could go on but sometimes i felt so afraid. i am seriously busy until i dont have time for myself and i'm struggling,striving to set aside a time for God. well..here i am, spending some time to blog!a lil thing to do 4 myself. i came back at about 6pm and slept like there's no tomorrow until 1.30am. crazy me. now i'm awake and goin to do all the things i'm suppose to do later.

i dont know - is it my time management?or..?i have aredi divide my time - things becoming more consistent than last time and I praised God for all my assignments have improved tremendously. Growth coming in, expectations rising, responsibilities coming up. well i need to be MORE than ever consistent?yea.yea. i let out a sigh of - relief or stress? sigh...sigh...i felt so lazy right now but i still want to continue doin my things cuz i couldn't just let go of all things - if not, i will not be able to go on anymore.

i managed to do some things for myself last 2 days - but thats also part of assignment....on Thu i went over to 'Semua House' near jalan masjid india street to buy beads,ribbons,flowers for a group assignment. Then went for a sleep over at my friend's hse in Cheras - to do e group assignment as well. we had a good time laughing and talking. today went there again to get things 4 assignment and bought some things for myself too. some things for christmas too. i dont even have time to go for christmas shopping!arhh...this month i must plan my finance well cause quite some cash to spend on certain things.

i hardly stay in room...i always go in the room for like about 15 mins then i'm out again for long long hours. my mate's bf came over sometimes said that i came in e room den i was busy doin my things - dont even have time to sit down!yea i told him,yea i'm very busy. ha-ha. the only time i'm in room is durin the night...but this week i hardly stay in my own sweet room...sigh..!mm...i better not waste anymore precious time! -jk- haha i nit do work on my assignments and things 4 CF christmas night. my friend just sms-ed me askin y i din go CF 4 so long and i din attend hostel CG. i want to go but 2 bz...i miss hostel CG!i used to go most of the weeks!i like it there...haih

home fellowship really felt like a home to me!beautiful and lovely environment and wonderful people! =)
chaoz dulu...balik nanti - lama lama lagi kut..mungkin - ah tak tau bila [haha]

Argh...a lot of assignments!!!3 assignments due next monday.And says the lecturer "i like to pressure you all" eEegHhh...??!!!#$#*!

the assignments are pretty interesting, but always have to rush for it.yea, gotta work real hard *winkz *winkz. praise the Lord that everything is under His control. i'm still seeking Him...never gonna stop. e designs for CF christmas night posters, flyers, & T-shirt also done.Really thank God for His wisdom upon me.wow, its' really awesome how God fashioned me and all things. Amazing...i could gazed and wonder of His goodness all day long.=)